Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
“You’re Riviana Gray. You’re my wife. You’re my mate. You’re the Queen of the shifters and the magic users. That is who you are.”
“Except, now I am the Goddess of the Fae, the shifters, and the magic users. So, what does that really make me?”
“You will still be the same person, Riviana. Nothing will change that.”
“Won’t you get sick and tired of all the things that have been happening to me? Won’t you want to leave me because you can’t take all the changes that have been happening?”
“Riviana?” I spun her around on my lap so fast that her head lolled around oddly. I didn’t care though, I needed to see her face, to see her eyes, so I could try to figure out what was going on in that head of hers. “What the hell makes you think that I will EVER leave you?”
“I am such an anomaly. I have caused nothing but stress and heartache for you.” She was crying. Openly crying with tears coming down her cheeks and her lip tremble, all of it.
“I won’t leave you, Riviana. I have been sitting here trying to figure out a way to keep you from leaving me. Ever since we were in the clearing, I felt like you were going to disappear on me. I didn’t want to let you go because I thought that I would never find you again.”
“Joaquin?” I could see that she hadn’t expected my response to her words.
“Riviana, you need to know that I will follow you wherever you go. If you become a flying purple alien, a Goddess, a normal person, an intergalactic superhero, whatever and wherever, I will be there with you. The kids and I can’t live without you. I won’t let you leave me so easily. I will fight to stay right here with you where I belong. I don’t ever want to spend a day knowing that you and I aren’t together in this life. I need you, Riviana. Please, don’t leave me.”
“Joaquin?” She was still crying but with a smile on her face now, and I was happy to see that her lip had stopped trembling.
“I love you, Little Bunny, I love you so much.”
“I love you too, Fido.” She threw her arms around my neck and hugged me tightly. I was warring with myself about whether I wanted this hug or to press my lips to hers. Being this close to her was a good thing as well, and I didn’t want to ruin the moment that we were having.
“Come on, let’s go to sleep. I can tell that you’re tired.”
I stood then, still holding her against my body, she even clung to me to make it easier for me to partially dry us off before we got into the bed. I didn’t let her leave me at all, even after we laid down. I kept her in my arms and pressed my lips to her forehead.
I held her like that all night. I didn’t so much as move a muscle all through the night. And when she fell asleep, long before me, I just laid there and watched her while I listened to the soft, steady rhythm of her breathing. This was what I needed. This closeness, this proof that she was here with me. I needed to reaffirm that she was with me forever and ever, and I needed to relearn what her body felt like in my arms.
I was glad that she wasn’t going to leave me. I was glad that I didn’t have to chase her across the world to make her know that I wasn’t going to let her leave me. However, I couldn’t believe that after all this time and everything that we’ve been through, she actually thought that I was going to leave her just because she became a Goddess. She was still my wife, still my mate, and that was never, ever going to change.
When I did finally drift off to sleep, all I dreamt about was my Little Bunny. All the things that we have been through so far, the good and the bad. The fighting and hating each other in the beginning, the time Edmond kidnapped her and she got her wolf, our wedding, the time we saved the missing kids and then the time in France, when she killed Edmond and brought us back his head, she did like bring us back heads, huh. Then there was everything that happened after that, everything that got the Fae involved in our lives and changed our destinies forever. I didn’t leave her through any of that, I wouldn’t leave her now.. Not now, not ever.
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Riviana
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I woke up the morning after the battle wrapped in Joaquin’s arms. I could tell that he had held me all night and refused to let me go. I didn’t know how he kept his arms from hurting when he did this, but he managed it somehow. And I have to admit, I loved when he held me, it made me feel so safe and secure. And right now, I needed that.
What I needed most of all right now was to know that I was still me. I needed to know that despite ascending to my new role as a Goddess I was still me, and that no one was going to be afraid of me or leave me.
That was obviously something that both Joaquin and I were afraid of. He thought that with my newly received powers I wouldn’t need him or that I wouldn’t have a place for him in my life anymore. That was just ridiculous. I couldn’t leave him now, not ever. I needed him, I needed everyone that had been with me on my way to where I am now. I needed Joaquin, I needed Talia, Reagan and Rika, I needed them all. Vincent, Shane, Shawn, David, Dietrich, Mom, Dad, Grandfather, Lila, Noah, Nikki, Carter, Emmalee, Juniper, Paul, Cedar, all of them and still even more.
I may have just woken up, but I was already feeling anxious and nervous. I didn’t know what I should do. From now on, I wasn’t just Queen Riviana anymore. From here on out, I was supposed to be Goddess Riviana. Not that everyone knew about that just yet.
The first thing that I was going to need to do was talk about all of this with my guards, my family, the goddess guards, the people in the castle, everyone that would be directly affected by me and what this new ‘title’ of mine might affect.
There was a lot to think about, a lot to deal with, and a lot of talks that I had to prepare for. That sounded oh so fun. Oh, no, that is not sarcasm dripping from every single thought in my head right now, I am really, truly looking forward to that headache, I mean wonderful time.
I decided it was actually time to wake up now. I had been sitting in Joaquin’s arms, feigning sleep for long enough. He was still asleep though, so I had no reason for me to really want to get up.
The moment that I stretched and started to move so that I could get up, Joaquin called out to me and squeezed me closer to him.
“Don’t leave me.” His words came out on a mumble. He was still worried about that? Was this going to last a long time? I hope not, because I have got to pee.
“Joaquin, I am just getting up for the day.” I put my hand on his arm and patted it soothingly.
“Please, don’t leave me.” He grumbled again, holding me a little bit tighter.
“If you squeeze me any tighter then I am going to piss all over you. I need to get up, Joaquin.” That at least made him loosen his arms from around me and stretch his muscles a little, which by the way he did without taking his arms from around me.
“I don’t want to be alone.” He blinked and looked at me like he was saying a casual hello.
“And I don’t want to piss my bed. I think you can be alone for the time it takes me to go to the bathroom.”
I pushed him away and this time he let me go. I was up and rushing to the bathroom within seconds. He was also getting up and following me. Ugh, stupid Fido.
“I need to go as well, when you’re done.” He smirked at me while standing there naked. We had gone straight to bed after our bath so neither of us had gotten dressed last night. It did make it easier for me to use the bathroom, I didn’t have to pull anything down first.
“Is this going to become a regular occurrence?” I asked him as I tried to hide myself. I didn’t need him watching me go to the bathroom.
“I don’t know what you’re even talking about.” I sighed and just rolled my eyes. I had scared the hell out of him yesterday, I guess I needed to give him time.
