Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
I love him when he gets like this. This was the sweetest thing ever. In fact, I think I was going to tell him just that. And it was a good thing that I was sitting across his lap instead of facing away from him. I was able to just turn my head just a little bit and press my lips to his. I was kissing him within a second of those beautiful words from him. My tongue tangled with his and my arms snaked around his neck so that I could hold him closer to me.
This kiss was one of the few that I had gotten since I woke up, since I came back from the underworld. It felt like so long, if I was being honest. It felt like I hadn’t been intimate with Joaquin not in just the last four months or so, but rather like it had been years. My body was starved for this attention and affection from him.
I turned toward him just a little bit so that I could intensify the kiss some more. I would have straddled his lap and rose above him if I could. It was a little difficult at the moment because of the largeness of my belly. It really was getting in the way at the moment.
“Ugh! Damn baby belly. I’m happy that I am pregnant, but I want to kiss you right now.” I complained but there was laughter in my voice.
“Yeah, it’s definitely in the way.” Joaquin laughed as he put both of his hands on my belly again. He was feeling the boys again as they moved around inside of me. “I can’t wait until they’re here.”
“Yeah, well, you better wait. Because right now is 鈥榤e and you’ time. Come on, Joaquin, focus.”
I did what I could to recapture his lips for another kiss but he was bound and determined to avoid me.
“No. Wait, Riviana.” He moved his hands from my belly and put them on my shoulders. With a little bit of pressure, he pushed me away and made me sit down all the way on his lap.
“Why, Joaquin? Why do I need to stop?” I was not happy and I knew that he could tell that based on my attitude and my tone of voice.
“Because, Riviana, my Little Bunny, my dear sweet wife, I know that you won’t want to stop if you kiss me again.” He looked so lost and hurt right now. How was it that he was hurt when I was the one being denied here?
“Of course I won’t want to stop. I want to be with you, Joaquin. I need you. I want you. I have to have you. I feel so empty and so lonely. I want to make love to you Joaquin. I have to. Please, don’t deny me.” I know that I was essentially begging him for sex, but dammit I wanted it.
“Please don’t look at me that way, Little Bunny. You know that I want to be with you. You know that I would give you everything that you want and more. But I can’t. Not right now. Not while you’re pregnant. You’re so far along and with three babies this time. I don’t know how this will affect you physically. And I don’t want to put you into labor too soon. I don’t want you, or the babies, to be hurt because of this.” I knew what he was saying. It all made sense and everything. But that didn’t mean that it didn’t hurt.
“But Joaquin-?” I was about to plead with him some more when he started to speak again.
“No, Riviana, please, don’t beg me. That will just make me feel worse. I hate to deny you, my love. I really do. But I have to. I want to be with you more than almost anything else. But the thing that trumps it, the one and only thing that rises above being with you, is your health and safety and that of our children.” This time, when I looked at Joaquin, closely in the eyes, I could see how hard all of this was on him. I could see how much strain he was putting on himself to make it so that we were not intimate with each other right now. It wasn’t easy for him and here I was making it worse. I was being so mean to him right now.
“I’m sorry, Joaquin. I didn’t mean to hurt my little puppy. Can you forgive me, Fido?” I kissed his nose to let him know that the intimacy was no longer up for debate. I didn’t want it anymore.
“Always.” He answered me with a laugh. “Now come on, I can wash you up.”
From there, we just had a normal bath. He washed me and I helped to wash him, but there was no sexual tension whatsoever. When we were done, Joaquin stood up and took me to sit on the small bench that was in the bathroom. That was where he dried me off and wrapped me in a super fluffy and extra large towel. I was dressed for bed and laid on the mattress to relax. I wasn’t exactly happy right now, but I was content at least.
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Riviana
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I figured that I had a little while left before I was going to go to sleep so I might watch a movie or something. Joaquin had sent Talia, Reagan and Rika into the room to say their good nights to me. They were all very happy that their mommy was able to squeeze them when they hugged her. And I will admit that this mommy also cried when she hugged them like that. I didn’t know how much I would miss holding them tightly until it was taken away from me. And I never wanted it to be taken away from me again.
After the goodnight hugs and kisses were given and I was settling in to snuggle with Joaquin, the remote in hand to turn on a movie on the large TV screen across the room, there was a call that came to Joaquin’s phone.
“Hello?” He said as he answered it quickly. I recognized the ringtone of the call and called out to him.
“Tell Noah I said hi.” I wasn’t paying too much attention since I was scrolling through a list of just about every movie ever made. I needed to pick one so that we could watch it before bed. Something not too emotional or sappy. I was pregnant and I knew how sensitive my emotions were at times like this. I didn’t want to be a blubbering mess when I fell asleep. I would end up looking like some sort of zombie when the kids came to see me in the morning.
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“Riviana says hi.” Joaquin passed along my message as I looked through the endless list.
There was a little bit of a pause, during which I settled on a romantic comedy for the movie. One that was more funny than sappy and wouldn’t make me want to cry at all. Well, at least not too much. Then, when I was pretty much about to hit play, Joaquin turned toward me and spoke to Noah.
“Yeah, send them up. I think she would be OK with seeing them right now.” I wanted to tell him that I didn’t want to see anyone right now. All I wanted to do was to go to sleep after watching this movie.
“Who?” I asked him with my eyebrows raised a little in surprise. I knew that if Joaquin wanted someone to come up and interrupt our time alone, they must be very important. He wasn’t the type to share his time with me if he didn’t have to.
“Yeah, we will see you in a second.”
Based on that response from Joaquin, I could guess that they were already on their way up to the room. I guess I would find out who these important guests were soon enough. You know, since they were already almost here.
I sat up a little in the bed and set the remote on the side table. I didn’t turn off the TV because I was certain that I would be watching the movie after these visitors left. Why go through the trouble of finding the movie again later?
The moment that I set the remote down, there was a knock on the door. They were already here. That really was quick. That was fine though, quick meant that I didn’t have to wait. Especially since Joaquin still hadn’t told me who were them.
I waited in the bed while Joaquin went to unlock and open our door. The first person that I saw was my brother, Noah. He was wearing casual clothes, yet he still somehow looked like he was a prim and proper young man. There was literally no way for him to look like anything else. That was just him and nothing would ever change that.
Behind Noah were two men. Men that I knew more than anyone else in the castle knew them. Well, possibly. I hadn’t seen them in a little over twenty-four hours and it was possible that others had seen them and talked to them over that time.
The two men were, of course, Rudy and Alexio. They were finally coming to see me after our return to this world. Or rather, my return and their first time ever being here. They were new to this world, and I hoped that they were settling in just fine. I kind of felt bad for not checking in on them sooner.
“Rudy! Alexio!” I called out to them in shock when I saw them clearly. They weren’t wearing their uniforms from the underworld anymore. They looked completely different with just a simple change of clothes and different styles.
Rudy, the sweet and innocent one of the two, was wearing a light blue button up shirt, a dark gray vest and a pair of jeans that seemed to fit him perfectly. It was all paired with some white sneakers and a boyish haircut. He literally looked like a totally different person, but in a good way.
