Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
Riviana
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“Calm down, Riviana.” I heard a voice coming across the wind to me. It almost sounded like it was soft and whispered, but I knew that it had to have been yelled or screamed at me to be able to even reach me at all. “Calm down. Take a deep breath. And then we will fight this dragon woman together. We will end Hekate together.”
I recognized that the voice was that of my father’s. He was trying to help me out, but he wasn’t the only one.
“It’s OK Mommy, the dragon lady can’t beat you.”
“We believe in you, Mommy.”
“You’re strong, Mommy. You can do this. I know you can.” The boys, Zachary, Zander and Zayden, all gave me encouragement that was soon followed by Rudy’s and then Alexio’s.
“It’s alright, Queen Riviana. Calm down and focus. I know that you can do this. You can do anything. You are the amazing Goddess Queen Riviana.”
“Come on, Riviana. You’ve been proving me wrong this whole time, don’t stop now. Don’t let it get to you now. You’ve got to keep fighting or I won’t follow you anymore. I believe you can do it.”
All of the voices sounded like they came at me as whispers in the wind, but I don’t really think that they were whispers, or even screams or yells. No, these felt like something more than that to me. This felt like they were just thinking these things and the thoughts were reaching me inside of the whirlwind. And that wasn’t all either.
“COME ON, LITTLE BUNNY! Slow down and think it through. You’ve got this.” I heard Joaquin’s voice as well. I heard him encouraging me and giving me support even though he wasn’t here right now at all.
“Yeah, that’s right Riviana, you’ve got this, sis. Let’s go.” Noah’s encouraging voice came in next. He was sad but I could also tell that he was proud of me. And just hearing his voice after all of this time made me want to cry. I missed him and Joaquin so much. And everyone else as well of course.
“You’re the best Bunny ever, Riviana, come on and do this. Prove to Joaquin that you have got what it takes.” Trevor was the next one to start yelling out to me and I nearly cried when he supported me with his words. I don’t know how I was hearing these voices or why, but it was enough to make me feel so loved.
“I believe in you, Garin铆on. I know that you can do this. We all know it.” Even Athair m貌r was giving me support right now.
How was it that I was hearing these people? How was it that they were giving me this type of encouragement when I knew for a fact that they weren’t here with me and that they didn’t know what was going on? Was this just a general support that they were sending my way? Were they just telling me to beat whatever was happening to me? Even if that was all that it was, it was helping me out. It was making me feel loved and supported. And man, support was truly something that I needed right now. I needed to know that people still cared about me and that they hadn’t given up on me. And these words couldn’t have come at a better time than right now.
I stopped moving altogether for a few moments. I didn’t want to move and make any more noise. I wanted to see if there were any more voices that were going to come to support me. If there were, I didn’t want to be making noise and causing them to not be heard. I wanted to hear them and feel their love and support.
Well, unfortunately, I didn’t hear anyone else’s voice calling out to me. I didn’t hear any other voices that were filled with love and support for me. However, I did feel the love that the others had for me. It was almost overwhelming. And I know that it was real. It was like everyone back home who loved me had sent some of that love here to the underworld with me.
And that love that they were sending me. That feeling that I was getting from all of them. It was calming me down and making me take the slow deep breath that I had been needing.
All of that love and support was giving me just what I had been missing in this moment, and for that I would be forever grateful to them. This was amazing. It felt like there were a few dozen people trying to hug me at the same time, but it wasn’t chaos or anything. It was just pure love and happiness.
I could feel all the love that they were sending me. And with all the support that the people I loved and that loved me were sending me, I felt like I could do anything. I felt like I was on top of the world and was able to take on anything and everything.
There was something else that I was feeling too. I had been on the verge of tears before Athair m貌r said his words and before the feelings came from the others. And now that I had experienced all of that, I truly was crying. They weren’t sad tears, not all of them. They were happy tears for that connection to them all.
I was a little sad though. I missed everyone. I wanted to go home. I wanted to hug my children. I wanted to see my brothers and my parents. I want to hold my husband in my arms and know that I was somewhere safe and secure. I wanted and needed all of that. And because of that, I was crying.
Thankfully though, I had kept myself from sobbing. It was just a silent little cry where the tears rolled down my cheeks. I didn’t try to stop them, and I didn’t try to wipe them away. They were not tears that I needed to be ashamed of. These were the tears of love. Love that I felt for others and that they felt for me. I was lucky and therefore I was proud of these tears.
Not only that, but these tears were giving me clarity. They were washing away the desperation from my eyes. They were helping me to know that I could do anything that I wanted and needed to. They were powerful tears that were working a magic on me. And with that magic, I would be better equipped to take on the Hydra that was Hekate.
By the time that I looked back at Hekate, I was grinning. That was how much love, happiness, and power I was feeling in that moment. I was feeling so much that it made me smile at her in a way that said that she couldn’t touch me. I was powerful, I was strong, and I was loved. That was more than I could say about the fallen goddess. That was more than she could boast at all. And with that knowledge, I was going to be able to take her down.. I was going to be able to finish this.
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Riviana
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“HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA!” There went that grating laughter that the dragon bitch liked to use so much. There had to be a better way for her to laugh, but she kept insisting on using that one. I almost felt like that laughter was a weapon of hers. It was that bad. “Look at you, Riviana. The almighty Queen Riviana, the goddess three times over, the all powerful piece of celestial trash, Riviana Gray. Look at you and what you’ve become. You’re nothing but a sniveling mess. You’re crying because you can’t take what I am doing. You’re crying because you can’t get to me and therefore, I am already winning. You killed some of my heads, but I am still alive. One head is all I need to make it out of the Hall of Damnation. One head is all that I need to rule the world. HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA!” She really was stupidly confident and cocky, wasn’t she? She really thought that I was crying because of her. Well, I wonder what she would think when she learned the truth.
“I hate to break it to you, Hekate, but these tears have nothing to do with you. Not at all. In fact, they are because I am so loved. That and I miss my family so much. Did you know that I can hear them? Yup, that’s right, I can hear them. Not to mention, I can feel the love that they have for me. It’s coming through to me. That feeling of love and heartache. They miss me too, and it’s making them sad. It’s a combination of those emotions that is making me cry right now. I can assure you though, it has absolutely nothing to do with you.” I smirked at her, knowing that it would piss her off when I said those words.
“Why, you little bitch. How dare you speak to me like that? You know that it’s simply not true. You fucking liar. You are crying because you are scared of me. And, who wouldn’t be? Just look at me. I am a dragon, a Hydra. I am fierce and powerful. I am enough to strike fear into the hearts of all that see me, including you. Stop lying. Stop pretending. You know it is seeing me that caused your tears.” I can’t believe how much anger there was in Hekate’s voice. She truly didn’t like what I had said, did she?
“Believe what you will, dragon bitch. However, I know the truth and that is all that matters to me. I don’t need to lie to you. And I don’t need to be afraid of you. You’re about to die, right here and right now. You’re about to be ended once and for all. And I will be the one that joyously puts an end to you.”
I felt a little crazy just then. When I said those words to Hekate, I laughed. I laughed long and loud like I was some kind of psychopath. Clearly, I was losing touch with reality. Clearly, I was becoming a very unstable, and therefore a very dangerous, person. What was I going to be capable of from here on out? What was I going to do while I was here? I just didn’t know and that was scary, while also a little exciting.
“Are you ready, Edmond?” I chanced a small glance over at him. He was standing to my right side, yet across the hall. It was a direct line from me to him, it was just that he wasn’t right beside me.
“Yes, Riviana, I am ready.” My father looked excited and happy. Was he just looking forward to fighting in a battle with me as an ally, or was it that he had grown so used to killing by this point in his life?
That wasn’t fair of me. I was the one that knew how much he had changed. So, it was really rude of me to assume that he just wanted to kill someone now. I needed to do better than that. I was the one that was happy and thrilled with how far that he had come, so I needed to stick to those thoughts right now and not revert back to the old ones. I needed to be the solution, not the problem.
“Then let’s go, Edmond. I know that together we can do this.” I nodded at him, hoping to be able to get this all moving soon. I was happy to be working with him and to actually see an end in sight. “All that I have left to do is to kill Hekate.”
“All that we have left to do.” Edmond had run across the hall and was standing next to me. “We’re working together on this, remember. So that is all that we need to do. You and me, both.” He was smiling at me when he said those words. I never truly noticed how handsome my father was. He had a decent face, yeah, but it used to be sullied by the anger and evilness that he had inside of him. Now though, he just looked handsome and good.
