Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
I thought that I was doing the right thing. I thought that I was protecting everyone. But I didn’t protect them. I stopped thinking of them as people and only saw them as beasts. What a horribly selfish thing for me to do. How could I have just thrown away their lives like that? How could I have been so cruel?
“Do you see the error of your ways now, Riviana? Do you see why you bear the responsibility for the death of so many people that day? You allowed them to be created and then you destroyed them without thinking about them at all. It was such a sad, sad day. Do you not agree?”
The other me was trying to get a rise out of me. She wanted me to get angry. I had figured that part out by watching her responses. She enjoyed it when I got angry or sad or any negative emotions really.
Well, I wasn’t going to give her the satisfaction anymore. I wasn’t going to let her get to me, never again.
“Yes, I see the error of my ways, but I cannot go back and change them now, can I?”
“No, Riviana, you cannot. And you cannot hide what you are feeling. You may think that it is hidden from me, but it is not. I can still feel it inside of you. That turmoil of anger and sadness rolling around inside of you. That is what you need right now. You need to learn more about it.”
“And if I take that turmoil and do something really bad with it, what then? What would happen if I let myself be run by those feelings?” The anger was rising to the surface as I spoke, and I could tell that the other me was liking that as well.
“That is what I am here to prevent, Riviana. You will see what I mean soon enough.. For now though, please just keep watching.”
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Riviana
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I focused on the images again, trying my best to ignore the annoying presence of the other me. You know, I truly hope that I am nowhere near as annoying as she is. If I were, I would not blame everyone that knew me for secretly hating me. Because right now, I was hating that other me.
I was watching as I ran across the battlefield after Shawn had been hurt. I was running to check on him, and Joaquin, having seen me running away, started to follow me. Joaquin, however, he had to tread carefully since I had left behind a trail of ice. I also looked different, something that I had never known about until now.
As I focused on myself on the screen, I saw that my eyes were more white than usual and spinning like they were cameras zooming in and out of focus. Was that how my eyes looked when I saw things that were far away? That was kind of cool.
Not only were my eyes different, so was my body. I was covered in a thin layer of ice, and I was giving off a sapphire blue glow. Huh! No wonder I was leaving behind ice when I ran, I was covered in a magical layer of it as well.
While I was running off to find Shawn and to make sure that he was OK, I was enveloped in that purple fog that was Edmond’s calling card. It swirled around me, and I remembered that it even went in through my mouth and nose. It was filling me up and made it so that I couldn’t move or draw a breath. It was horrible, and tasted disgusting as well.
The fog swirled me to another place. Somewhere that looked like the battlefield that I had just been on, but it was now completely devoid of color and people.
“WAIT A MINUTE!” I shouted and leapt to my feet with a sudden thought. “Is that place the same as this place? Was I already here once before?” I started to try and remember if Edmond had said where we were, but I couldn’t remember it at all. His words were all a jumbled mess from that time.
“Indeed, you were here. Or close to here at least. That place and this place are both part of the underworld. The one you visited on that day was the closest to the surface. It is the place that souls go when they leave their bodies. Only, that time, you were taken there physically and not metaphysically as you are now. That place is just the start of the underworld’s many layers.”
“OK, and what part am I in now? Where am I in the underworld’s many layers?”
“You are in the realm of self-reflection. This is where people come to terms with their sins and learn their fate. You are not dead, so it is not your fate that you seek, but a way out.”
“Great. So that is why I am not allowed out of here.” I sighed and sat back down, it was the only thing that I could do.
“Exactly. Now you are starting to understand.” The other me smiled and gave me a look that was, at least I think it was, supposed to be reassuring.
“You could have explained all of these things to me sooner you know. That would have made all of this a lot easier on both of us.”
“But where is the fun in that?” That stupid, creepy, evil grin of hers didn’t look good on my face. I just wanted to smack it off of it right away.
“Whatever, let’s continue.”
The images on the screen started to move again. I saw myself looking around the clearing until Edmond showed up.
“Hello there, daughter of mine.” I heard Edmond’s voice from behind me. I whipped around to face him with anger in my eyes.
“You.” I growled at him through my clenched teeth.
“And here I thought you would be happy to have a nice family reunion with your dear old daddy.”
“Don’t ever fucking call yourself my dad, father, or daddy. I only have one dad and his name is Wesley.”
“I hate to break it to you little girl, but I am your father, and there is no other one but me.”
“You’re a fucking sperm donor that kidnapped my mother and ruined her life. Then you tried to kill me as well. That makes you anything but my family, you son of a bitch.”
“As if you know anything about your grandparents.” He scoffed.
“When did you kill your mother, Edmond?” I asked him, unable to bite my tongue on that one.
“See, you are my child. You know me so well already. Yes, we both murdered our mothers. Your existence took everything from your mother and drove her to suicide. And me, well, I took my mother’s life personally, hers and dear old dad’s. I needed their life force to strengthen my magic and to create my coven. Let’s see, they died a little over three hundred years ago now.” He chuckled to himself.
“You’re a fuckin monster.”
“You haven’t heard the worst of it.” He chuckled to himself. “I was the leading force behind the Salem Witch Trials. I was the one who planted it all in the minds of the humans. I told them about the existence of my kind, I showed them my parents as they were practicing their magic. From there it all just took off like wildfire. It was quite fun really.”
