Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
It was done, the man was dead, the images were frozen, and that event was over.
“I cannot be held responsible for what my father did. I am not him and his murders are on him.”
“Yes, but the people around you helped to facilitate that man’s murder because you got hurt. If you had not gone out the man might still be alive.” The other me was trying to blame me for this man and that wasn’t fair.
“Or he could have died a different way when my father went off the deep end. I cannot say for certain.” I snapped at her, my anger rising.
“Perhaps yes, perhaps no. We will never know now, will we? That man’s life was snuffed out because you chose to defy the orders of your alpha and leave the estate.”
“I was still on our property. I didn’t do anything wrong.” I knew that I was yelling but I was unable to stop myself.
“You still did not follow the rules.. And because of that, people were hurt, traumatized, and killed.” What was going on here? Was every decision I ever made going to be microscopically analyzed or something?
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Riviana
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“There is no need to get so worked up already, Riviana. There is a lot more that you need to see. Please, calm down and keep watching.”
At that point, the other me reached into the bag at her feet again. She pulled out another handful of that glittering black powder, and then threw it into the fire. The fire roared and blazed to life as it reached toward the sky once more. A few moments later, as it settled back into that purple, blue, and black flickering, the other me started to speak again.
“It was not long after that last memory that there came another point in your life where a major decision was made. This decision could technically have had two different outcomes. Two different ones than the way that it all played out. I think this is something that you need to see, something that will make you understand where your erroneous decision making has had the largest impacts.”
“I do not make erroneous decisions. I make the choices that best befit the situation. I make the decisions that are best for me and my people.”
“Do you, now?”
Without saying anything other than that, the other me just looked at the fire and the images started. She didn’t give a preamble to this memory, she just started watching it on the TV screen type of view that was there in the flames.
I was now looking at a scene that I had nearly forgotten about. I think that I had simply tried to block it from my mind because of what had happened during this time.
There, in front of me, was the foyer of the old estate, and standing in it were Caleb, Frederick, and myself.
“What is it you’re missing?” Caleb asked me.
“What?”
“You said you needed something but couldn’t get it. What can’t you get?”
“Oh, I’m missing a couple books for my college courses that started today.” I answered him, but for some reason I felt embarrassed.
“We can’t have that, can we?” Frederick smiled at me.
“Would you like me to get it for you?” Caleb smiled wide, showing his perfectly straight, white teeth.
“No, I couldn’t impose on you. You just recently got back, after all.”
“It’s no problem, Luna.” Caleb soothed me with his soft voice.
“If you really don’t mind, I would appreciate it.”
“Of course, I’m here to help you as much as my cousin.”
I tried to explain to Caleb what it was I needed, and where Shane had gone wrong when he picked up my books last week, but Caleb wasn’t certain he would be able to tell the difference between the books I already had, and the ones I needed.
“It’s fine Caleb, I can always wait until Vincent is available.” I deflated as I spoke, a defeated tone filling my voice.
“How about you come with me?” He asked, a smile spreading across his face. I was momentarily filled with anticipation, but it was quickly replaced with apprehension.
“I don’t know, Joaquin would be angry if I left right now. You know, with everything that is going on.”
“If you’re not safe with the second strongest wolf in the pack, his own Beta, then who could you be safe with?” He asked, a confident look in his eyes. “Besides, it’s the only way you’ll make sure you get the right books.” He had a good point. I needed these books, and as Joaquin’s Beta, he should be strong enough to protect me.”
“Alright, but just to the store and back.”
“Of course, Luna, I wouldn’t dream of taking you anywhere else that might be considered dangerous.”
“Just let me go get ready.” I hurried from the room so I could get shoes and a jacket from my bedroom.
I remembered the day now. The scene continued to shift and morph after that into what I remember happening. I rode with Caleb to the bookstore and he parked so far away from the building that I thought it was odd. After that, Donna, Leslie, and Jeremy had surrounded us. Only, I learned later that they only surrounded me. I was their target and they were there to take me to my father.
I tried to fight but there were four of them, so I knew that I didn’t stand a chance. My best option was to run away, but even that failed. I watched my pathetic attempts, their assholish ways, and even the point where they chloroformed me and knocked me out.
