Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
“No Daddy, Mommy isn’t cute.” Rika was still scolding him.
“That’s right. Mommy is beautiful. She is so much better than cute. That is for little girls like Rika and Talia. They’re cute. Mommy is beautiful.” Reagan was being my knight in shining armor right now. I didn’t need it, of course, but he was defending my honor with Joaquin, and it was so adorable.
“Yes, I know. She is the most beautiful woman in the world, but she is still my Little Bunny. That will never change.”
“Do you have a name for me, Daddy?” Rika batted her eyes at him.
“I sure do, baby girl. You’re my precious little princess. And Reagan is my little man.”
“You think of everyone as little, don’t you?” Reagan crossed his arms and pouted.
“To me, you are. But you will be big and strong like me one day. Don’t worry, son.” Joaquin ruffled his hair.
Reagan was satisfied with that answer. He wanted to be a big strong fighter like his daddy was. I didn’t want him to fight, but his future was his to decide, not mine.
From there, the four of us finished picking out the special outfits for the next day. We needed to get them ready so that the morning would go more smoothly. I could have had someone else take care of this, but this was a special occasion, and their personal attendants hadn’t yet been chosen or trained.
I had a very unrestful night’s sleep. I kept having nightmares about my babies leaving me. They were growing up and going out on their own and I was never going to see them again. Joaquin was almost annoyed with how I kept tossing and turning all night. That was, until he pulled me into his arms and kept me pressed against his chest. That was when I finally fell into a deep and peaceful sleep.
Anxiety was running high the next morning. All through breakfast I felt like I was going to snap and start sobbing like a little baby. Today was the day. Today I was going to be sending my kids out on their own. Today I was going to drop them off and just leave them.
HOW COULD I DO SUCH A THING! I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON?!
The children were dressed and ready to go. They looked adorable in their crisp little uniforms. Rika in a cute little pleated black skirt with gray tights. She was wearing a white button up shirt, with a dark green tie, a dark blue sweater vest, and a medium gray blazer. The uniform was so cute on her. It was even topped off with adorable little dress shoes.
Reagan was dressed similarly. He was wearing black pants, a white shirt, green tie, blue sweater vest, and gray blazer. His look was finalized with a pair of little black loafers that I thought were the cutest thing ever.
After the children were dressed, Joaquin helped Reagan with his hair, and I did Rika’s. I brushed her long, beautiful, wavy black hair and luxuriated in the silky feel of it. After I made sure there were no knots in her hair, I parted it down the middle and then pulled it up into high twin-tails. One on either side of her adorable little head. Her hair, with it’s natural waves like mine, looked perfect in this hairstyle. I knew that she wouldn’t like it for too long but I was going to do it for as long as she let me.
Now that the twins were dressed, we got Talia in her car seat so that we could all head out. It was a short drive, but we were making it as a family so that I was able to distract myself. Unfortunately, the drive was over sooner than I thought it would be.
When we pulled up to where we were going, I got out and helped Reagan and Rika from the car while Joaquin got Talia and held her in his left arm. He then took Reagan’s left hand while I stood in between the twins and held their hands as well.
I was about to cry again. Dammit. Why was I so emotional about this?
Together, the five of us went into the building and down the noisy hallways. There were so many other people around that I immediately worried about my children. I had to deal with it though, there was nothing that I could do.
Finally, we got to the room where we were going. There was a young and beautiful woman standing outside, greeting people as they went inside.
“Hello, nice to meet you, I am Mrs. Buhler. It’s wonderful to meet you. What are your names?” She was addressing the twins, not us.
“My name is Reagan, and I am the older twin.”
“My name is Rika, and my brother is a butthead.”
“Well, it’s nice to meet you, Reagan and Rika.” She was giggling at Rika’s words, but she wasn’t done yet. “However, we don’t use the word butthead here, OK.”
“OK.” Rika just shrugged.
“Hi, it’s nice to meet you.” The woman held her hand out to me, so I let go of Rika’s hand so I could shake it.
“Hello, it’s nice to meet you, Mrs. Buhler. My name is Riviana, Riviana Gray.”
“It’s a pleasure, Mrs. Buhler. My name is Joaquin Gray.”
I swear that the woman looked shell shocked right now. She was still holding my hand and just staring at us with wide eyes.
“Th..th..th..the Qu..Qu..Qu..-.” She stuttered and couldn’t finish.
“Yes, Mrs. Buhler. I am Queen Riviana, and this is King Joaquin. Please don’t let that affect you. The twins are kids like anyone else.”
“O..O..OK!” She was still in a state of shock.
“U..u..uhm, w..w..welcome to the classroom. Reagan, Rika, I hope you like it here.”
“We will.” The two of them said together then walked into the room.
“Joaquin? Why am I doing this again?” I asked him with tears in my eyes again.
“Because it’s time for them to start preschool, Little Bunny. Everything will be OK. We will pick them up in the afternoon.”
“I’m sad.”
“I know. Come on.” He took my hand and led me out of the building and to the car. I didn’t want to leave my babies. I didn’t want them to be without me right now. I had spent so much time away over the years because of work and now they were going to be spending so much more time away from me. This was so sad.
