Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
“Hey, Astro.” Juniper’s husband came up and added his arms to the hug. “I’m glad to see you’re back. We all missed you.”
They all sat down together, the children all going off to play while their parents talked and spent time with each other. I did my best to serve them tea and keep them well taken care of. I also kept an eye on the children, who were all very close in age to each other, all on the verge of turning four years old.
The tea party went great, in my opinion at least. They talked about the times in the Fae Kingdom and the battle. Needless to say, they were quite shocked to learn about Queen Riviana’s ascension. They got over it quickly, though, and the conversation was able to move on.
After Queen Riviana visited with her friends, she had a few meetings with visiting Alphas who had come to settle some issues they were having. For some reason, I was asked to stand in with this meeting as well. I got to stand behind my Queen just like Gabriel, my mate, was doing. We were both there to take care of Queen Riviana and any needs that might arise for her.
Gabriel provided political support while I was there to help attend to her and the guests. This was a first for me, but I quite enjoyed this part of my job. Queen Riviana was truly giving me such wonderful consideration.
The meeting with the Alphas went great in my opinion. Their dispute had been over encroachment of territories. They were Alphas from different packs and different species so the territories seemed to cross over into similar or shared spaces. Queen Riviana listened to what they each had to say, consulted with Gabriel, and worked out a solution that would be beneficial for them both. It had taken a long time to come to an agreement of course, and there had been a lot of yelling and squabbling from the visiting Alphas, but my Queen kept her cool and was able to get them to see eye to eye. I was so proud of her.
Come dinner time, I was once again invited to stay in the room with the Queen. I was attending to Queen Riviana as well as King Joaquin, their three children, Reagan, Rika, and Talia. In attendance were also Wesley, Eve, Samuel, and Lila, members of the Queen Riviana and King Joaquin’s families.
During dinner, my duties were to serve the food, keep the drinks topped off, and make sure that everything went smoothly. I honestly felt like a proper attendant doing all of this. This was amazing for me and all day I had been smiling with joy. What better job was there for someone like me than that of caring for the Goddess Queen?
When the night was finally winding down and I accompanied the Goddess Queen back to her room, at her request, I expected that I was going to be cleaning something or doing something that she asked me to do. I didn’t expect her to sit at her desk and then look at me with serious eyes.
“So, Roisin, how was your day?” Queen Riviana asked me the moment we were alone in her room.
“It was lovely. I was so happy to be taking care of you personally, my Queen.”
“I am happy to hear that.” She grinned at me, something that made my heart soar with joy. “The reason I asked so much of you today, Roisin, was that I am thinking of having you become my personal attendant. And in turn, training personal attendants for the children. They have other people to help them, but I have a feeling that there will be times when my family will be too busy to help me with their care. They are not normal children and I expect them to come with their own unique set of challenges. Does this sound acceptable to you?”
“Most definitely. I would love to be your personal attendant. I will take the very best care of you. And I will even train the new maid that will be taking over for me. I am more than happy to be there for you, my Queen. Thank you for this opportunity.” I think I might be a little too excited.
“No, Roisin, thank you.”
This had been the best day of my life. I couldn’t believe what it was that Queen Riviana was doing for me. I was going to be caring for Queen Riviana every single day. I was going to be training people to care for the prince and princesses. I was going to be so busy and that made me so happy. I couldn’t think of a single thing that was better than what I just heard. Not one.
Well, maybe just one thing. And that was that I was soon going to be having my own baby. My baby was going to grow up alongside the princesses and prince. My baby was going to be able to see what wonderful people this family was up close and personal.. This was the best thing ever.
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Lila
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I swear I felt like I was living some kind of fairytale right now. There had been so much happening that just didn’t make sense to me. How was all of this even possible?
First, I found out from Riviana, my daughter in-law, that I was now immortal. I wasn’t particularly upset about being immortal, but when I heard that news it made me think about my mate, my husband that died. Living this long life would be great, if I had him to share it with. But I didn’t. I didn’t have anyone to share my life with. I was basically going to be an immortal widow.
I thought about Collin a lot after I learned about my immortality. I couldn’t get him out of my mind really. However, there was someone else that had been taking up residence in my mind a lot lately. Someone that I saw almost on a daily basis. And for some reason, I felt like there might be something there that wasn’t there before.
I mean, I have known this man for so long. And I had mated with Collin all those years ago. Granted, my husband died in a battle just about twelve years ago. That shouldn’t make a difference, though. I was only supposed to be mated once, just one time and that was supposed to be it.
I was feeling the pull though. I was feeling the pull towards a man that I have known for so long. Toward a man that I have been able to trust and accept with taking charge since the days that my husband was the Alpha. A man that was so much older than me that I never used to give it any thought at all, but now, why shouldn’t I?
Age no longer seemed relevant to me. Now that I knew that I was going to live forever, did the fact that he was a little more than twenty years older than me really make a difference?
Oh, and there was that really interesting thing that seemed to be happening to him lately. He was looking younger and younger with each passing day. Hell, with each passing hour. He no longer looked like he might be in his sixties or seventies. No, he now looked like he was in his early forties. He looked no older than his son, that was for sure. Even his son looked younger too. He was looking somewhere in his mid thirties now.
Oh, even I was looking younger too, by the way. I was now looking to be closer to my mid thirties once again. I felt amazing and looked so young that I wondered if I was really awake or if I was just dreaming.
Anyway, enough about the way we looked. I only cared about the way that we felt. Specifically about the way that he felt. We spent a lot of time together, working on different things for Riviana. It’s not like we were never around each other. And I had been watching him to see what it was that he was thinking and feeling.
Oh Goddess, I was getting so frustrated. I just wanted to read his mind right now. I almost felt like Belle in Beauty and the Beast. I was stuck trying to see how this beast of a man thought and felt about me.
The lyrics to that iconic song, the one that Belle and the Beast both sing, was playing in my mind whenever he was near.
‘There’s something sweet and almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
And now he’s dear and so I’m sure
I wonder why I didn’t see it there before.’
Oh, Dammit! This was so scary. I wasn’t a young woman anymore, despite my current appearance. I should just ask him how he feels about me. Why am I acting so scared? What am I, a middle school girl chasing after a crush?
I took a deep breath. I steeled my nerves. I got ready in any way that I possibly could. I even had more of those lyrics playing inside my head.
‘New and a bit alarming
Who’d have ever thought that this could be
