Filed To Story: In the Shadow of the Past Luna (Lily & James)
He gives me a huge smile.
“In fact, I may even remove your picture from my dart board,”
I tease.
“Please don’t. I don’t want you to forget me yet,”
he says seriously.
I do not know how to respond to that comment, so I just head back to the other bed and lay down.
After a couple more minutes of small talk, we agree that we both need some sleep. I am definitely tired, but I am honestly more eager to finally talk to Rose about everything that happened. Our conversation on the way to the room was not long enough.
With my back to James, I open the link to Rose.
“Rose, do you believe that he is really a virgin? I mean, he sounded convincing, and I cannot imagine why he would tell me he has dysfunction problems if it is not true, but… how? Alpha wolves usually need to have sex all the time. It is one of the reasons that I never wanted to be mated to an alpha; I never wanted to get someone else’s hand-me-downs.
“It is the mate bond. He really cannot get it up for anyone else.”
“That does not make sense, Rose. Cheating happens. That is why they teach us about betrayal pains in high school. And the medical school has a whole class on how to treat patients who have suffered betrayal pains. If the mate bond prevented ‘getting it up,’ we would not need any of those lessons.”
“Those are really important lessons for most wolves, Lily, but the Moon Goddess created us a little bit differently. We have a really important destiny, more important than you realize. It is because of our destiny that the Moon Goddess did not want to take the risk that we could be compromised by betrayal pains. So our mate bond is a little stronger than normal, and as long as the mate bond is in place, our mate is physically unable to cheat.”
“But we rejected the mate bond the same day that we discovered it. How does that explain James not being able to perform before and after?”
“Just like other wolves, the mate bond starts to take effect when both mates get their wolves. If the pair already knows each other, it can linger passively for years. And after a rejection, there will continue to be lingering effects of the bond until one or both of you mark others. James had issues as soon as I came, and he will continue to have a problem playing with others until the bond is completely gone.”
“Does that mean that he could have had sex with Stephanie if he wanted to? You did not come until after
Stephanie died.”
“Yes, he could have slept with her or anyone else if he really wanted to.”
I….”
“Does it work both ways? I mean, could …
“Sleep with someone else? Yeah. You can. It does not sound fair at first, but it makes sense. The Moon
Goddess is concerned with protecting us, not as much our mate. Once we mark a mate, that will change though. She will protect him too.”
“What about the betrayal pains?”
“Neither of you have to really worry about those. You never really had to because of his… issue… but the rejection will protect him from feeling anything unless you mark each other.”
“Wait… Rose, have you known this the entire time? Is this why you were originally okay with leaving the pack without rejecting him? And why you said that you would take on the betrayal pains on your own, and
I should not worry about them? Because you knew that we would never actually feel any?”
“Yes.”
“Why did you not tell me?!!?!? Don’t you think that would have been important information for me to have?”
“It was not my story to tell. James needed to tell you the truth in his own time.”
“Rose, you are my wolf! How can it not be your story to tell?!?”
“If it had been Luke doing the lying, I would have said something. But it was not; it was James. And if your mate wanted to lie to you and everyone else, I was not about to help him out by telling you the truth. What he said and did was still wrong, and threatening you with betrayal pains was still very cruel. He deserved the rejection at the end.”
“Wait… does this mean that James threatened to do all those things just to upset me? And that he never actually intended to carry out the threats?”
“Oh, he meant every word. He would not have been able to carry out the threats, but he did not know that, and he fully intended to try.”
“Does Luke know about all of this?”
“No. Luke obviously knows that you have a wolf, and he knows that our mate bond is stronger than normal, but he does not know why. If we want them to know, we will have to tell them.”
I think about that for a few seconds, feeling a little bit tempted, but then I realize why I can’t.
“What would I tell him, Rose? I have this special wolf, and as a result, I am in constant danger. Oh, and because you are mated to me, congratulations your di ck does not work. But, so sorry, I cannot tell your anything about what the dangers are or what all of my powers are because my wolf will not tell me. That sounds really helpful and informative.”
“Sorry, Lily, but you know that I would tell you everything if I could. Unfortunately, it is best if you find out everything in your own time.”
“I am sorry I am sounding so frustrated, Rose. I just do not understand why there have to be so many secrets.”
“I know you don’t, Lily. But please trust me on this.”
tout Rose vo you lied to me! You told me that you would take on the betrayal pains knowing there would not be any! And you also told that I might feel discomfort.”
“Oh, that. Well, I did not exactly lie about the discomfort. His member may not work, but his lips still do.
If he wanted to kiss someone else, he probably could. And without a rejection in place, you would feel that.”
I sighed. I love Rose, but these secrets are driving me crazy.
“I am sorry about that, Lily. I promise there is a reason. I love you, too.”
“ROSE!”
“I know, I know. Stop listening to your thoughts without permission. Get some sleep, Lily. Good night.”
“Good night, Rose.”
(Lily POV)
I groaned as I woke up, finding myself laying on something hard instead of the super soft bed that I fell asleep on. I wondered whether I walked in my sleep, and if so, what I was laying on now. As I started to wiggle around, trying in my grogginess to figure out what I was laying on before I opened my eyes, I felt something hard on my thigh. That is when I realized that I was not laying on someTHING, but rather someONE.
immediately opened my eyes and sat up. Yes, indeed, I was laying half on top of James. Thankfully all of our clothes were still in place, although that “something hard’ against my thigh was exactly what you would think it would be given yesterday’s conversation.
James jerked when I sat up, and then he looked at me in surprise.
“Good morning,”
he said hesitantly.
“Um, good morning. Why… why are you in my bed?”
He gave me a half-smile. “You are in mine.”
I looked around and realized that he was right. I quickly stood up. “I am so sorry. I do not know how that happened.”
“Oh, that was me,”
Rose confessed.
“Luke says it was Rose,”
James stated at the same time.
Sigh. I told you she was a secret ny mph.
“Sorry, Lily, but I wanted to spend time with Luke. You and James have been sucking up all the time with your human issues, so we had to talk while you were sleeping.
“Did you have to climb on top of him to talk?”
“Easier that way,”
she replied in her vixen-like voice. I rolled my eyes.
“Would you like to get breakfast before you leave?”
James asked.
“I don’t know. What time is it?”
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