Chapter 47 – Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel

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“What happened last night will not happen again.” He seemed tense.

“I’m sorry. I will not leave when you’ve asked me to stay put again.”

“That’s not what I meant.” He said impatiently.

“Then what is?”

“I could mention so many aspects.” He murmured, turning to look at me. “The dance for one. I won’t allow that to happen again, ever.”

“That’s fine, I found it awkward.”

“The k**s, it was never supposed to happen in the first place.”

“Agreed. I didn’t expect it nor want it to happen. I didn’t want my first k**s forced on me like that.” I noticed his eyes widen for a fraction of a second.

“And lastly, I will not save you again. You will either save yourself, or not put yourself into such a situation like that ever again.” Those words surprised me. “If you require assistance after today, call one of your guards.” He added.

“I’m sorry I was such a burden to you.” I told him, looking down.

“You’re more than a burden.” He groaned, causing me to look up at him, his eyes were filled with anger and other dark emotions. “I hate you.” He snapped, my heart shattered in that instant.

I had known he would never love me, but I had hoped for a level of civility. For mutual respect at least. And maybe, just maybe, affection might grow over time. I knew I was already developing feelings for him. I couldn’t help it. But he would never return them. Even then, I kept myself from crying.

“I understand.” Was all I said.

“Now, finish getting ready for the day.” He snarled at me in anger before he left the room.

I went into the bathroom to shower. I had intended it to be quick, but things were different now. I sat there, on the floor of the shower, with the hot water falling on my head. I didn’t know what was water and what was tears as I sat there and cried.

I cried until the hot water ran out completely. I continued to cry while I dried myself off and get dressed. I cried until I had no more tears left in me to cry. It was both more and less than I expected. I cried for nearly an hour, which was longer than I had ever cried before. But I couldn’t believe that was all the tears I could muster for my mate.

When I p**ssed a cold cloth to my face to soothe the red, swollen skin around my eyes, I didn’t even feel like crying when I thought about Joaquin. Smacking him upside his big Alpha head, yes, but crying, nope.

I don’t think the feelings I was developing would go away so quickly. They were aided by the mate bond after all. But maybe, eventually, I could manage to look at him with an empty, apathetic feeling. I could hope at least. Dammit, why did he have to go and k**s me last night, that had made my heart and body all confused.

Joaquin was upset when he finally saw me.

“You took way too long.” He snapped at me. He didn’t comment about my red eyes, so either he didn’t notice, or my makeup job had done the trick. I was glad I decided to pack the little bag after all. I just shrugged my shoulders and ignored him. I didn’t want to talk to him yet, we would have to play the happy Alpha couple later.

He sped along the highway and we made it to the next pack within forty-five minutes. This pack was just as small as the last and paid fealty to ours. It meant that they didn’t actually have an Alpha. They had a Prime Beta. It was like the Alpha of a pack, and functioned as one in Joaquin’s absence, but they never truly had the same power over the pack members as the Alpha did. And his mate had no official role among the pack, but she did help with all the women and children still. The trip here didn’t take long.

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Riviana

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Joaquin met with the Prime Beta, telling me to sit in the dining room with the Prime Beta’s mate and not move. I thought about ignoring him and leaving the dining room, he was a jerk and didn’t deserve me listening to him, but that would just make things harder on me. So, I stayed put. I would make his life hell when we were at home. On the road, people had to see us in a certain light.

When the meeting was over, and it was time to leave I couldn’t be happier. I went out to the car and got in, ignoring him all the while. I heard him telling them that I was still feeling tired from the incident last night, which he had told them a little about to explain our tardiness.

We drove home in silence, because I ignored Joaquin’s every attempt to talk to me. Once we were back to the estate, I retreated to my room and locked the door. I didn’t want to see him more than necessary right now. I know it will get better eventually, but right now, just the sight of him was too painful.

As soon as Vincent picked me up for classes Monday morning, he knew something was wrong. But I refused to elaborate. I think he just assumed it was the trauma of the weekend and ultimately blamed himself. I couldn’t tell him what was really bothering me, but I did try telling him that it wasn’t his fault. I don’t think he believed me at all.

Juniper didn’t know about the events of the weekend, and she could tell right away that something was wrong.

“Spill it.” She told me with no preamble or greeting.

“What?” I asked her.

“Whatever has you so down in the dumps.” She told me.

“It’s nothing, really.”

“I’ll believe that when I become the next Alpha myself. News flash, that will never happen.” Her tone was firm, no hint of humor in the joke she just told.

“Seriously Riviana, you look like hell.” Paul told me.

“Gee, thanks Paul.” I snapped at him.

“You can tell us what’s wrong Riviana.” Cedar added. I just shook my head no, fighting back the tears, apparently, I had more to cry over him than I thought I had. I turned and ran into the bathroom that was just down the hall. I heard all four of them call my name and two pairs of feet chase me.

“Riviana?” Juniper called as she came into the bathroom. Checking which stall I was currently hiding in. “What the hell is the matter with you?”

“Just leave me alone and let me finish crying this out. Once all the tears are done, I will be able to talk about it clinically.” I told her through sobs.

“Does it have anything to do with the trip this past weekend?” She guessed, she knew I had gone away, but she doesn’t know anything that happened. I ignored her question. “Bingo.” She said intuiting the non-response to mean yes as she always did.

“Does it also have something to do with a certain tall, sexy Alpha?”

“Just drop it.” I told her.

“Two for two I see. What did he do to you?” She asked me. She knew that Joaquin and I weren’t on the greatest of terms, but that we were at least civil when others were around.

“Juniper.” I pleaded with her.

“Look, whatever it is, it’s major, otherwise I would leave you be. But this is affecting you so much that you’re having a breakdown. I’m trying to help you, because I’m your friend, I’m here for you, and I love you.” She said. Those three words. Something I wish I could hear a mate say to me one day, but that was never going to happen. I would never hear a man tell me that now. Not ever. Because I was mated to a man that hated me. I cried harder.

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