Filed To Story: Their Bullied and Broken Mate by Teri Petry
TRIGGER WARNING….TALKS OF SUICIDE
My heart is shattered right now. How could Loki blame me for Nick dying? Yes, he was helping me, and I will forever have that guilt, but it was not my fault. He was outnumbered. When I left the hospital, I had no clue where to go. I just knew I had to get out of there. I didn’t want to go to the pack house, they would find me there and I needed to be alone. I ran to the training fields hoping that no one would be there. I had seen an old willow tree close to there the day that I went to the cell house. It was beautiful and the branches were long. I could hide out there for awhile and collect my thoughts. I needed a straight head when they finally found me, because if I didn’t, I would crumble at their anger.
The events of the day replayed in my mind. Loki was right, I should have stayed put. I should have talked Ruby down, but instead I acted with Ruby instead of using common sense. I just wish I could go back in time and change everything. Make better decisions. Maybe when I was younger, and had followed through with wanting to end myself, none of this would have ever happened. My mates wouldn’t have had to deal with all my bullshit drama, and their cousin would still be alive. They could have been much happier with a second chance mate. Tears were streaming down my face, and the thoughts of following through this time were heavy. I leaned my head against the tree and closed my eyes. I let the tears continue to flow and tried to keep reminding myself that it wasn’t the time for a pity party or stupid decisions. Loki is just hurt right now, he didn’t mean what he said. Did he? Ugh….my head is such a mess. I let out a blood-curddleing scream to let out frustration and then heard someone yell my name. I opened my eyes and saw Jason running towards me. Shit! I gave away my location.
“Melly, what’s wrong? Are you hurt? Why are you screaming? The twins have been looking everywhere for you,” he said worryingly. “I thought you had been taken, and Mel, I can’t lose you. If something happened to you after everything, I would lose myself.” He muttered. I stared at him blankly for a moment, and cocked my head. “Jason,would you really? That sounds a bit….dramatic. I am honestly starting to feel like being born was a mistake. Everyone, including you, would have been better off without me existing.” I said honestly.
He scoffed at me and said, “Now who’s being dramatic?” He sat next to me and held my hand. “Mel, how is it that the two of us have made it through all the bullshit we have endured in our lives? I wish I would have wizened up sooner than a few years ago. Maybe together we could have changed the outcome of our present. You know, Rebecca never wanted to move to Mystic Shadows. She wanted me to come here, but I insisted on staying near my ‘family’.” My head snapped to look at him. My eyes furrowed and I replied, “Please tell me you are joking. Why would you insist on forcing your amazing mate to be surrounded by psychopaths? You had to know that’s what they truly were, Jason.”
He bowed his head and said, “I couldn’t leave you alone with them. I hadn’t fully come around, but I had started seeing things differently awhile before I met Rebecca. It took her to help me see clearly, and that’s when I fully came around. Mel, if I had left you there and moved here, it would have gotten much worse for you. You would have more than likely been killed.” The realization and truth of his words hit me like bricks. It’s true, if the only person who tried to help me even just a little bit had left, I would have died a long time ago. I was thankful the goddess and Rebecca decided to help Jason see his wrongs and try to make them right. He has a good heart, his judgement and thinking were just fucked up because of dad’s brainwashing.
We sat and talked for awhile longer about how I was feeling. I was starting to get cold and hungry, and agreed to go to the pack house with him to eat and put on warmer clothes. He gave me some good advice about where the twins were concerned, and I would just give Loki space. Liam too if he needed it. I didn’t like it, but I would respect it. He helped me up and we started to walk to the house. Jenna was sitting on the porch when we got there and she ran to me and embraced me. “Melian! Do not ever scare us like that again! Until this is completely over, you can’t run off like that! Please….just don’t!” she reprimanded me.
I could feel her worry, and I felt awful. She had just lost her mate, not that it was truly a loss, but I understood her feeling of being alone, and worried about those she cared for. Her emotions were crazy and even though she was alright with Eric dying, her heart was still broken because of the bond break. “I’m sorry Jenna. I wasn’t trying to worry anyone, I just needed some time alone to think. I’m fine. I promise.” I apologized. She hooked her arm to mine and led me into the house. Walking up the steps to my room, I saw my mates at the top waiting for me. The look of agony and worry all over their gorgeous faces. I stood there looking at them, and lowered my gaze. “I’m sorry,” was all I could get out, and I walked around them and went straight to our room.
I gathered some warm clothes and went into the bathroom to take a shower. I closed and locked the door, and turned on the water. Once it was the right temperature, I climbed in and let the hot water fall over me. I started to sob and slid to the shower floor. I felt like I was losing everything just when I had found it. All because I didn’t listen.
Preparing For Tomorrow
*Liam POV*
As soon as she left, Loki knew he fucked up. I probably should have run after her, but I couldn’t leave my brother in the state he was in. “Go after her. I know I fucked up, but I can’t move right now. Not until Roxy gets here at least. I don’t want him to be alone,” Loki stated. I placed my hand on his shoulder and told him I would wait with him until she came. We sat in silence, and I sent a mind link to Roxy to see where she was. She said she had just finished a birth and as soon as she cleaned up she would be down. I thanked her, and picked up my phone and texted Jason. I need to make them official members so that I can just link him and Rebecca.
Me: Hey bro, have you seen your sister?
Jason: No, last I saw her was with you guys.
Me: Would you care to look around for her? Loki and I will head out as soon as Roxy gets to the morgue. He doesn’t want to leave Nick alone.
Jason: Understand. Yeah, I’ll head out now and see if I can find her.
Me: Thanks man.
I placed my phone back in my pocket and walked over to the cabinet by the sinks. If I had to wait, I was going to make myself useful. I grabbed a washcloth and got it wet. I went back to Nick’s body and started to wash the blood off of his face. It was a shame he died so young. He had just found his mate, Grace, not long ago and was beyond happy. Grace was a good girl, and loved Nick so much. She was his world, and was hoping to start a family soon. Elder Iris is with her now, and we will go see her in the morning. The door opened and Roxy slowly walked into the room and she was sobbing. It was as if she was finally letting herself feel her emotions about her only son dying. When it all happened, she was in the middle of delivering a baby. She had to remain strong, but now that she is here with his body, she has let herself feel the loss. She rubbed his face and talked to him softly. Her body started to shake with grief and Loki and I surrounded our aunt and gave her what comfort we could. Roxy always felt guilty for not raising Nick like a mother should. My parents took Nick in when he was very young. Maybe 6 years old. Roxy’s mate, and Nicks’ father, Ulrich, was abusive towards her and she feared he would start to be abusive to Nick. During a fight one night, Roxy took out a gun and shot him 5 times. Thankfully, the Royal Council realized it was self-defense, and she had a light sentence, but she never regained custody of Nick. She went to med school to be a nurse at first, but then fell in love with the thought of being an OB/GYN. Now she is our pack MIDWIFE/OB/GYN, and a damn good one. When my parents passed away, she was there for all of us. Now it was our turn to be there for her.
New Book: Returned To Make Them Pay
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