Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
“It is just best if we leave sooner rather than later.” I told her honestly. “I am sorry, sweetheart, I know that you don’t want me to leave, but I have to do this. I am the only one that can do this job, you know that as well as I do.
“I know.” She sniffled a little. “I just really hate when things get this bad. Things are dangerous right now, Carter. And I don’t know what is going to happen to us all.”
“I know, it’s not a good situation for our people at the moment, but I am working on changing that. I want to help get rid of the DOE. I want to make the world safer for our people and the humans at the same time. That is the best outcome here. Don’t you want to know that your husband was a part of saving the world?”
“I would rather know that my husband was safe with his family.” I saw the redness in her eyes when she looked up to me then. “Promise me that you will be safe, Carter. Promise me that no matter what happens, you won’t do anything to get yourself hurt. I won’t be able to handle it if I lost you.”
“I promise, sweetheart. I will not do anything to get hurt.” She leaned into me then, pressing her face against my chest. She was not having a good time of things at the moment. This was hard for her, for all of them.
I spent the rest of the night with the family, even moody Leeah who seemed to want more to do with me than usual. In the morning, I was prepared to leave.
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Riviana
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The morning came all too quickly. I knew that Carter, Landon, Paul and Juniper were all going to be leaving as soon as we finalized a few things with Clarke and Mr. Doe. They were going to be out there on their own, no instructions or anything like that. They were supposed to just wing it. I knew that, and I trusted them to do what they needed to, but I was still worried about them.
I was a bit of a nervous wreck when I went down to breakfast with Joaquin in the morning. I was worrying about all the things that could go wrong while they were gone, and what it was that I would do if they were to get hurt. How would I know that they needed me if they weren’t able to contact me?
Well, that wouldn’t really happen, now would it. They could contact me mentally, like they could with so many other people. The kids in the pack and the community at large hadn’t learned that skill yet, but they had. They would be able to tell me what they needed to whenever they needed to.
Damn, I have been letting the humans influence me too much lately. I was completely forgetting that they would be able to report to me nightly and that they didn’t need to get away. What the hell was the matter with me? And not only that, but if they were to somehow get hurt, they could just tell me where they were and then I would be able to open a door to them immediately. This wasn’t that bad at all.
I think that I perked up a little before breakfast even started, and by the time that I was done with the food, the kids didn’t act like they had even suspected that anything was off. They were laughing and acting as casual as always. Well, aside from Reagan and Rika. They knew what was happening, so they had some slight reservations about the situation, just like I had.
Finally, moving to my office and meeting the undercover spies before they left, I let them all see that I wasn’t scared about this mission of theirs at all.
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“You look to be happy.” Shawn said with wondering eyes as he looked me over. “I thought that for sure you would be worried about them as they went undercover. I mean, your brother, your best friend and her husband, and a man that Joaquin considers to be a brother, they are all close to you.”
“Yes, but I know that Carter-, oh, uhm, I mean William Porter, Brandon Evans and Travis and Janelle Downs will all be just fine. There is nothing to worry about here. I mean, I was worried, until I thought about it a little more.”
“They are going to be in the enemy’s camp, so to speak.” Athair m貌r said in a serious tone. “This is not something to take lightly.”
“Oh, I know. And I was probably more of a wreck than any of you are right now.”
“That is true.” Joaquin nodded as he swept me into his arms and hugged me from behind. “She was so nervous and worried that she looked like she was going to cry and throw up at the same time.”
“Gee, thanks for that.” I rolled my eyes at his words. “Anyway, I stopped worrying when I actually thought about it.”
“They are going to be in there with no phones at first. They are going to be among enemies, this is serious.” Dietrich spoke in a chastising tone as he tried to remind me of what I already knew.
“Yes, I know. But like me, you seem to have let the humans influence you lately. We have been worried about them and their way of life lately, and we have all forgotten one crucial thing.”
“And what is that?” David asked in a quizzical tone.
“They can contact me mentally, any of us mentally. They are going to be safe, there is nothing to worry about. I mean, come on, we’ve had this ability for almost twenty years, and still we forget sometimes. Isn’t that funny?” I actually did laugh at that, and I wasn’t the only one either. The others started to join in my maniacal moment after a second until the room was filled with laughter and we no longer worried about anything. Actually, it wasn’t until Clark and Peter were at the door that we stopped laughing. I knew that they thought I was crazy when they saw me, but I didn’t care.
“Good morning to you, Mrs. Gray.” Clarke bowed his head in the same way that he saw Peter bowing to me.
“You don’t need to bow, Mr. Clarke, you are not a part of my kingdom.”
“If it’s alright with you, Mrs. Gray, I would rather just follow his lead. I don’t want to offend someone. Also, you can just call me Kirk.”
“Alright, Kirk.” I nodded at him and accepted his willingness to submit to a Queen that wasn’t human. “Now, if you are ready to go, I am sure that these four are quite prepared as well.”
“Of course, we will leave as soon as everyone is ready, however, might I ask what was so funny when we arrived?”
“It was nothing. I was just showing the others that we have absolutely no reason to be worried about them all going undercover. There were a few things that we were letting ourselves forget in the panic of the situation.”
“I am afraid that I do not follow you.” Kirk looked apprehensive as he spoke, I had a feeling that apprehensive was his normal.
“We have some abilities, given to the others when I acquired them myself. And one of them is the ability to speak with each other telepathically. We don’t always use it, because just popping into someone’s head is rude, and can interrupt some situations.” I left the end of that vague on purpose. He didn’t need to know that I never wanted to be interrupted through a mental link when Joaquin and I were being intimate.
“Ahh, yes, I understand.” And it seemed that he did get the meaning of it.
“Not to mention, Kirk, I have the ability to open those doors. If someone were to be in trouble, if they needed a quick exit, then I would be able to take them away with a quick door. I don’t think that we need to worry about any of them as they go undercover. And make sure that you also stay in contact with me. You are on our side, Kirk, and I don’t want anything happening to you either.”
“I appreciate that, Mrs. Gray, but I am afraid that I will not be able to stay near them too much. I will have to answer to my family about my absence.” He looked terrified about the prospect.
“You know, Kirk, I sincerely wish that I could do something to help you.” I stepped closer to him as I spoke, and the last word was spoken as I grabbed onto his hand. He had flinched a little, but he didn’t pull away. Although, I think that it was because he wasn’t able to pull away.