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Other than that, I couldn’t give him anything.
And he never complained, even though I felt his desire to take our relationship to a next level.
But tonight, I couldn’t even give him a kiss.
A tear slipped down my cheek.
I swear, I tried.
I tried my best to get out of my barrier, but I failed.
The more I tried, the more I felt disgusted with myself.
The more I felt my insides dying.
Even if I closed a chapter of my life in my mind, those strings never left me.
The feeling of doing something wrong never left me alone.
And I did wrong to myself by forcing myself to feel something for those men I dated.
But I couldn’t make my heart beat for someone else like it did for him.
So, I stopped trying.
When Warner asked me to be his girlfriend, he knew of my condition.
Though he didn’t know what happened in my past.
But he knew of my broken heart.
I told him I might never be able to love him back, but he said he wanted to give it a try.
I didn’t want to hurt him in the process, but his persistence gave me hope.
That maybe, I could feel love again.
But I didn’t.
Though he wanted a relationship between us, I agreed for my own selfishness.
And I hurt the man who was always there for me when no one was.
And all of this because of my stupid heart.
It just doesn’t know how to react to anyone other than only one person.
I gritted my teeth at the clench of my heart.
Another tear fell free.
I wished I knew how to stop…
I wiped my eyes, sensing a movement behind me on the rooftop.
Her sandalwood perfume reached me before she sat beside me.
We stayed silent for some moments before she finally spoke.
“You’re still mad at me for that night, aren’t you?”
Her gaze remained high in the sky, as the clouds slowly freed the moon.
“I can’t be mad at anyone when I was the foolish one,” I said, still not turning to her.
I saw her looking at me from the corner of my eye.
“You weren’t foolish, Em.
You were just a young girl in love with someone at a wrong place and time.”
I let out a dry laugh, my nails dug into my palms.
“Funny, you were the one who made me realize my foolishness.”
I still remember that day when I confronted her about it, and how she laughed it off in my face, making me remember how na?ve I was to even think a boy like Ace would want me instead of someone like her.
A soft sigh left her.
“I’m sorry, Em.
I know I behaved like a bitch that night, instead of like a sister.
But, trust me, I never wished anything bad for you.”
After a moment of silence, she spoke again.
“Because of misunderstandings and childishness, we’ve lost a lot of years, Em.
I-I missed my sister in these years.
Even if you visited sometimes, you were so distant that I couldn’t reach out to you.
And honestly, I never found that much courage.”
The tremble of her voice made me glance at her.
Blue orbs glistened under the moon.
“I want the relationship we’d had before, Em.
I want my sister back.
Especially when the most important day of my life is approaching.
Can’t we just forget the past and start over?
A new beginning?”
“Why did you do it?”
I knew it wasn’t the right time to ask her this when she was talking about a fresh start.
But I had to know.
It might be just a teenage girl’s heartbreak over her crush for her, but it was much, much more than that for me.
Looking away, she heaved another sigh.
“I know you hate me for that.
But trust me, Em, I never wanted anything bad for you.
I’d always wished for your well-being.”
“Can you answer my one question?”
I wanted to know why she did it.
Why did she break my heart after knowing everything?
She seemed hesitant, but then nodded.
“Did you love him?”
SIX: JEALOUSY
T he amber rays colored the horizon, manifesting a crown of crimson and pink above the setting sun.
Lines of birds flew across the sky in the direction of their shelter; melodic twitters of them felt like an announcement for the darkness to befall.
I took in a deep breath, filling my lungs with the cool evening air.
“Beautiful, isn’t it?”
Dad said, sitting on the car hood beside me.
I nodded, a smile curved onto my lips.
“Yes, very.
Thank you for bringing me here, Dad.
It’s been so long since I last visited.
I really missed our sunrises and sunsets.”
We used to come to this meadow at least once a week.
Well, at least me, Dad, and Tobias.
Mom and Tess were too lazy to join every time.
It was like a tradition for us.
The tradition my grandfather started with Dad.
But after my move to New York, I couldn’t join Dad and Tobias anymore.
“Me too, princess.
Without you, our visits here didn’t have the same meaning.”
His tone filled with nostalgia.
“Yeah, that idiot had all the fun for himself,” I joked, mentioning my brother.
He couldn’t join us due to an important meeting this evening.
“But I’m happy you came here with me this time.
It’s my turn today to have all the fun.”
I grinned.
Chuckling, he shook his head.
“Nah, our time here became pretty boring as even Achilles stopped joining us after you left for your high school.”
My smile slipped at the mention of his name.
He used to accompany us regularly to watch the sunrises and sunsets.
But after his father’s death, his visits became less, until it stopped totally.
I still remember my extra enthusiasm for the ride here, even at four in the morning, to see him.
Meeting him was more important to me than watching anything else.
I heard Dad heaving a sigh.
“Sometimes we’ve to let go of the past to live our present, Emerald.
Because until you live your present, you won’t be able to accept your future.”
I knew what he was trying to say.
Though my family didn’t say anything, I knew everyone has sensed my distance with Ace even after so many years.
But I couldn’t explain anything to them even if I wanted to.
They didn’t know the whole truth, so they couldn’t understand.
“But what if it’s too difficult to let go of the past?”
His gaze locked with mine.
“Nothing is impossible, sweetheart.
Sometimes we indulge ourselves so deep in our pain that we can’t see anything past that.
All you’ve to do is open your heart a little more, and let go of the grudges.
Don’t let the past hold you from your happiness in the present.”
I put my head on his shoulder, saying nothing.
Could I do it?
Could I be that brave to let go of everything and move on?
I haven’t been able to in years.
The buzz of my phone cut off my thoughts.
“Who is it?”
I put my phone back.
“Cassie.
She and Beth want us to have dinner together at our regular place.”
Nodding, his gaze turned back to the chromatic horizon.
After spending some more time talking and refreshing memories, we headed back to home.
Once dropping him off, I turned the car around and drove to Nova’s Diner, where the girls were waiting for me.
But all the way, the only thing that consumed my mind was Dad’s words.
I knew he was right.
I couldn’t let go of the past because I held grudges.
Grudges against my sister, grudges against Ace, grudges against myself.
I could understand the reason I blamed Tess and myself for being so na?ve.
But Ace, he didn’t deserve my hatred.
He’d never promised to take care of my heart that I’d blamed him for breaking.
But the heart couldn’t see anything other than its ache.
And it knew, it’d to hurt others if it wanted to prevent another ache.
After talking to Tess last night, I decided to give us another chance.
Maybe it was time to let go.
Even if it was just a tiny step, it was something.
I couldn’t just hold over something that happened years ago.
And maybe, it wasn’t all I thought it was.
Last night’s conversation flashed in my mind.
“Did you love him?”
Her irises didn’t flicker as she answered, “No.”
“Then why did you do it?
Why did you do it even after knowing you’d be hurting me by doing that?”
I asked, my voice was desperate.
A look of sorrow had covered her features.
“I didn’t want to hurt you, Em.
I’d never hurt my little sister like that, no matter how much different we were from each other.”
“Then why?”
She’d cast me a look of apology.
“I’m sorry, Em.
I can’t tell you why.
But you will know soon.”
She didn’t explain anything after that, just told me to think over her request and left, leaving me alone and confused.
What was she hiding?