Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
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“What is the matter?” Mom asked me as she came walking back into the bathroom. I hadn’t even realized that she had left the room in the first place. I guess I have been really distracted lately. I wasn’t able to tell what was going on around me.
“I..I was just thinking about something. That was all.” That wasn’t a lie, but it was so vague that it might as well have been one.
“You had another vision, right? Do you want to tell me about it?”
“C..can I change back first?” I asked her as she set a pair of my pajamas on the counter next to the sink. I recognized them right away. They were purple and consisted of a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. They also had little koalas all over the shorts and one big one on the shirt. They were a little childish looking, but I didn’t care. She had also included a new set of undergarments, top and bottom, and a pair of socks. She hadn’t picked out my clothes since I was nine, so this was something that was sort of special for me. I guess I hadn’t realized how much I missed her being there and babying me when I got too old for it. Or when I said I was too old for it. I had a feeling that I would let her do this, at least once in a while, even as I got older. I wouldn’t want it all the time, but to know she loves me enough to pick out my underwear when needed, that was enough to make my heart swell with happiness. And I was just happy that she was here with me right now.
“Come here, Talia.” She called to me and stood in the middle of the room. Then she seemed to think about something and turned the water in the shower back on. I hadn’t even realized that someone had turned it off. That was how little attention I was paying to things right now. This time though, when Mom turned the water on in the shower, it was running hot and not cold. This was for me to relax, not to wake me up.
“Thank you.” I knew that she did that so that I could hop straight into the water when I was done changing back into a human.
“You’re welcome.” She nodded as she reached out to put her hand on my head. With me in my wolf form and her standing in her human form, I was almost as tall as she was. If I stood on my hind legs I would tower over her.
I would guess that my wolf form was about as big as hers was, and just as slight in the frame as well. I had seen hers enough to know what it looked like, and I would never forget it with my perfect memory.
“This is going to be quick, but remember the feeling of changing back, sweetheart. You will need it in the future to shift on your own.”
“OK.” I nodded at her as I listened to what she was telling me.
“By the way, Talia, your wolf is gorgeous.” She was smiling at me. “I knew you would have a unique coloring, but I didn’t expect purple.”
“Yeah, neither did I.” I laughed. “I guess it suits the whole underworld theme though.” I laughed as I thought about it.
“Yeah, it does.” She chuckled.
I felt my body changing then, going from wolf to human again. And I watched as my mom’s arms moved steadily lower. As I shifted back and got smaller, my head was in a different position, and she had needed to adjust the position to accommodate.
“There you go.” Mom smiled at me. “And I see that you are still covered in quite a bit of blood. I am guessing that it came from the vision as well? Like that bruise from the last one.”
“Yes. I don’t know how it happened, but this is from the vision that I had.”
“Well, hop in the shower, Talia, we will talk about it when you get out.”
“I..I..I think that Daddy should be there too.” She noticed the childish way that I had spoken and looked at me with worry in her eyes. She didn’t comment on it though, she just nodded.
“Very well then.” She started to leave the room, but I stopped her.
“Stay.” I called out as I stepped into the shower. “I..I..I know that I am showering and all, Mommy, b..b..but I don’t want to be alone yet.”
“Alright, sweetheart.” She gave me a calm smile. “I will be right over here.” She pulled a chair toward the bathroom and sat just inside of the door. I saw that she was contemplating what had happened to me, and that she was likely scared by it all.
I made sure that the shower went by really quick. I washed my hair first, needing to get the blood out of it in a hurry. Then, while I let the conditioner sit for a couple of minutes, I scrubbed my body. I didn’t know if this was really my parents’ blood or not, but I knew that I didn’t want it on me at all. I knew that it was scaring me to think about, and that I needed to have it gone. If it was their blood, then I wondered how it had come back to the past with me. If it wasn’t their blood, then whose was it, and where did it come from? Those were questions that I needed to have answered.
Now that I had scrubbed every inch of my body as thoroughly, yet quickly, as I possibly could, I rinsed myself, twice. I needed to make sure that there was no trace of that blood on me anymore. I couldn’t stand the thought of that.
Now that I was clean, I got out of the shower and started to dry off as quickly as I could. I wanted to blow dry my hair, but there was no time for that. I just toweled it as best as I could and braided it loosely. I needed to make sure that it was out of my way, but not so tight of a braid that it broke the hairs when they dried. I also got dressed quickly and then brushed my teeth. I was ready for bed and the day at the same time. As odd as that seemed.
I didn’t leave it at that, despite the hurry that I was in. I needed to add some lotion to my face, arms, legs and a few other places that I could get to. I didn’t want to be naked for too long though, so I didn’t do this before I got dressed. I needed the cream though, I hated the feeling of my face being dry after a shower.
“There, I am ready.” I turned to look at her.
“Good. We can go and talk to the others.”
“Sh..should I go and get Lex?” I asked her, knowing that he would want to talk with me as well.
“No need. He has been glued to the wall outside your room since you shifted back. He is waiting for you.” She laughed and led the way out of my room. Sure enough, he was standing right there and waiting for me, dressed in his typical black clothes and ready for the day.
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Talia
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I followed my mom to the floors below the residence in the tower. All the while that we walked, Lex followed behind us. We walked and walked until we got to my mom’s large and comfortable looking office.
I knew that my siblings were sent back to sleep, but I doubted that they were actually able to sleep at all. I felt bad for having scared them and making them worry about me. It broke my heart that I was the cause of so much pain and worry in my family. I didn’t want to do this to them.
When I got to the office, I saw that there were people that were waiting for us there. Dad, Uncle Gabriel, Uncle Vincent, Uncle Dietrich, Uncle Shawn, Uncle Shane, and Uncle David were all there waiting for us. There was also a cart that had recently been delivered by Abigail. She had made breakfast for us. I felt bad about that as well. She had needed to get up early to make food for us. And I could tell that it was all done hastily, that was why it was a simple breakfast that had oatmeal, fruit, pancakes, toast, and scrambled eggs. All things that would be quick and easy to make.
There was coffee on the tray too, and since I didn’t get much sleep, I decided to get some. I didn’t care that my mom and dad gave me disapproving looks when they saw me pouring copious amounts of cream and sugar into the cup, I needed the caffeine right now.
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