Chapter 65 – Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel

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“Oh, yours was delivered yesterday.” This was true, as they had been picked up from three very specific stores in town by Juniper. There was another one on its way, possibly in the pile there, but that wasn’t an important one. I noticed the shock and slight excitement as it flitted across his face, it was kind of cute to see him acting like a normal person for once.

“Really?” I nodded my head. “What did you get me?” He grinned.

“Now why would I tell you that?” Laughing, I glared at him and went to start sorting the packages. They were all ones I had ordered from the same website, he most likely had one in this mix, but he wouldn’t realize it even if he saw it.

“So, you’re just a tease, huh?” His voice was suddenly right next me, his breath tickling my ear as it stirred the hairs that had come loose from the ponytail that I had pulled it all into. I shivered at the feeling but refused to give in.

“Not in the least. It’s not teasing if you dangle a treat in front of a puppy when training it, isn’t that what you’re supposed to do. Dangle the reward so they want to follow their orders and behave?” I fought the urge to shiver again and refused to turn my head and look at him.

“Keep calling me a dog, and I’ll show just how much of a dog I really am.” He whispered in my ear, it was both seductive and playful and I could hear a laugh in his voice.

“Actually, I called you a puppy.” I giggled turning my head just a little to the right so I could see the slightest edges of his face. I had turned more than I had intended, and I saw the heated look in his eyes, the sight of which shocked me and scared me just a little.

“Huh! Hey, Little Bunny, what’s up with your mark?” He asked me. I had never noticed that Joaquin hadn’t seen my mate mark since the day he had bitten me. I immediately put my hand up and covered my mark. The collar of the thin, black, long sleeved, cloth jacket I was wearing must have shifted enough for him to see my neck and shoulder more clearly.

My mark still hadn’t fully formed, even after over two months. I was beyond embarrassed by the incomplete mark. And to add to my humiliation, the state of the mark left it unsightly. It was currently a larger than average pack seal surrounded by nothing more than a giant gray cloud. Unless the gray cloud was Joaquin’s personal twist on the mark like every man had something special that they left on their mate. Maybe Joaquin Gray left his in the form of a giant gray cloud, and maybe his mark was larger because he was the alpha. I just didn’t know.

“Let me see it.” He demanded pulling my hand gently away from my neck.

“I don’t think it ever finished.” I told him sadly.

“It doesn’t look like it, does it?” He agreed, tracing the crest with his finger.

“Stop!” I demanded as I took a small step away from him. I knew we were having a decent conversation, and that my overreaction could very well set us back again, but I wasn’t ready for him to touch me so intimately. I had let him be suggestive, let him whisper into my ear, but he hadn’t actually touched me then.

“What’s the matter?” He looked confused when I turned to look him in the eyes, I almost felt like I could see a small amount of pain hidden in his eyes.

“I’m not a toy for you to play with whenever you feel like.” I told him. I know he was trying to force himself to be nice to me, and I knew his end goal here. But I will not be an outlet for someone who hates me. “I will not be your outlet Joaquin. If you want satisfaction, then go get it from yourself. I told you, you’re not getting anything from me. Not unless it was a mutual thing.” He was confused as he looked at me.

“I was only looking at your mark.” He smirked like I had the wrong idea.

“Yeah, and you were intentionally suggestive. And you can look at the mark without touching it.”

“What’s the matter with you? We were actually getting along just fine for once.” He seemed sad as he said this last part, like he wanted it to go on.

“But I know I am nothing more than a distraction to you Joaquin. You have nothing, or no one, better to distract you right now so you chose me to fill that role. But I won’t be that kind of distraction for someone who hates me.” I could feel the tears stinging the back of my eyes.

Why was I about to cry? I asked myself, even though I already knew the answer. Ever since day one, I had been slowly falling in love with him, even with what he had said to me. I couldn’t help it, my body made it happen, the mate bond, everything that bound us drew me to him. I just wished he felt a fraction of what I felt for him. I was already so in love with him.

And let’s not add the attraction to that. Oh Goddess, the attraction. I could set a forest fire with the heat of the attraction I had for him. But he felt nothing but hatred, animosity, and apathy. That was always clear by the way he looked at me.

“Fine, I’ll be leaving.” He sighed in a resigned voice. Hanging his head in defeat as he left the room without another word. I felt a little better when he was gone, but I also felt lonely the minute he was gone.

“Why does he have to hate me?” I sobbed to myself after he left.

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Joaquin

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I had thought my Little Bunny was ignoring me in the hall, but as she pointed out she did answer me. I realized she was just trying to hurry before the boxes and bags that had been delivered toppled out of her arms. I would never understand why they would insist on delivering their stuff in so many different packages.

“What’s all that Little Bunny?” She nearly jumped when I called out to her.

“Christmas presents.” She spoke but never paused or looked at me, or did anything besides continue walking.

“Seriously, you’re doing this again?”

“What exactly am I doing Joaquin?”

“You’re ignoring me again. What gives? Is this becoming a hobby of yours?” I could see the annoyance on her face as I spoke to her.

“I’m not ignoring you. I answered you, didn’t I?”

“No! Dammit!” I heard her cry out and noticed all the packages were about to fall.

I went up the last two steps separating us and put my arms around her and steadied everything that she was holding.

“Why did you order so much?” My voice held a mocking, joking edge to it as I asked her.

“My list of people to shop for got a lot bigger this year. Since I have met a lot of new people. Before I have only ever shopped for my family and no one else, this is the first time I have shopped for someone other than them.” She blushed, I always forgot how much her Grandfather had kept her hidden from people. She had never gotten the chance to buy a present for anyone except her family, that was sad, which meant no one but them had ever gotten her a gift.

“Let me help.” I lifted most of the pile up and over her head before she could protest. She looked at me holding them easily as if I were some sort of alien. “What? Let’s go.” I was nervous having her watch me, so I just continued up the stairs.

When my Little Bunny got to her room and opened the door I went in without hesitation, putting the load of packages on her table and turned to look at her playfully.

“Who all did you buy for?” I was genuinely curious about her answer to this question. I admit I wanted to know what she would get me for Christmas.

“My family, my friends, my guards, the staff, your mother.” She never said my name, that was to be expected.

“Hmm, should have known you wouldn’t get anything for me.”

“Oh, yours was delivered yesterday.” Shocked, I felt excitement as it flitted through me.

“Really? What did you get me?”

“Now why would I tell you that?” Laughing, she looked at me playfully and went to start sorting the packages.

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