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“I get that you’re struggling, Alex, but to go home with a guy and have sex with him is not going to sit well with me. Ever!” Kyle says after a moment of staring out at the dull grey clouds, reflecting the fight that is about to erupt between us. I’ve had enough.
I’ve had enough of him being so overprotective of me, wrapping me up in bubble wrap and locking me away in a room. He doesn’t know anything about struggles.
“Struggling? Struggling?” I echo back at him, my voice laced with anger.
“Alex, calm down,” Cole interjects, extending his hand in an attempt to quell my rising fury.
“No, Cole! You don’t fucking understand what I’ve been through! None of you do-“
Kyle whips his head around to face me, his eyes wide with surprise. I march up to him, my voice rising with each word.
“You try having a fucking gun to your head and see how easy life is! And to have that same person stab you. I’m not just struggling, I’m terrified! Terrified of myself, my thoughts. Last night, for a few hours, I felt like I escaped that fear. Do you hear me waking up every morning screaming? No, you don’t. Do you see the lack of sleep I get? No, you don’t. Do you see the pure fear on my face when I wake up? No, you don’t. I’m afraid to sleep, and I’m afraid to stay awake.
“I’m struggling to distinguish between a dream and reality. And for you to stand there and slut-shame me because I came home from a guy’s house without knowing the story? That’s not sitting well with me.
“We didn’t do anything! We didn’t ‘fuck’ as you so crudely put it. We only made out… So fuck you! Fuck all of you hypocrites!” The look of pure shock on their faces is almost satisfying.
I won this battle. I wiped the floor with each and every one of them.
“Come back to me when you know what it feels like to be terrified of your own mind,” I finish, leaving the silent room behind. In the kitchen, I’m alone.
My head is still fragile and I need to hydrate. I reach into the refrigerator, grab a cold water bottle, and drink half of it before a brain freeze sets in.
Shit! I hate brain freezes.
I decide to text Matt.
Matt
Hallelujah! Glad to finally have your number ??
Alex
I’m alive you’ll be happy to know
Alex
I think I scared them… ??
Matt
Yeah, you give off the don’t fuck with me vibe. That’s why I’m so nice to you ??
Alex
Yeah, I get that a lot! Anywho I’m going for a swim. I’ll text you later xx
Matt
Bye Alex xx
As I leave the kitchen, people start to trickle out of the living room. I change into a swimsuit and spray lotion on my body. It’s time for me and the ocean to have a little one-on-one time.
I glance out the window to see rain falling from dark grey clouds. It won’t stop me. As a kid, I used to run outside and race around with my brothers in the rain.
I’m going to go swimming in the rain. I always loved doing that, whether it was in a pool or the sea.
As I step back into the hallway and close my door, I’m suddenly pulled into a room, a hard chest against my back. Arms wrap around mine, restricting my movements.
The door shuts behind me, locking with a familiar click. I sigh and roll my eyes, staring hard at the door as if it might magically open. It won’t.
“If you pull a stunt like that again, I won’t be held responsible for my actions, baby doll,” a husky voice warns, laced with authority and anger. His hot breath brushes against my car, sending a shiver down my spine.
“What I choose to do is none of your concern,” I retort, struggling to free myself from his hold. He’s too strong. So I just give in. His arms loosen, and he turns me around to face him, his blue eyes boring into mine.
“Do you know how worried I was? When I see the rest of the girls come home but not you! And for them to tell me you went home with a guy… but not just any guy, the guy who flirted with you at the beach!”
His tone is low and disapproving, making me shudder.
“Like I said, it’s none of your damn concern! Worry about your own girlfriend, Knox. Stay out of my business.”
I spin on my heel to walk towards the door, but he pulls me back, his hands resting on my waist to keep me there. I run my hands through my hair in frustration.
This isn’t fair. Why is he doing this to me? I need to get over that night. I need to get over him. But I can’t do that if he keeps doing this kind of stuff to me.
“She’s not my fucking girlfriend, Alex! It is my concern, I’ve made it my concern. If you do this shit again, I will hunt you down and drag you out, along with beating the shit out of the guy who touches you!”
He steps even closer to me, and I can feel his heat radiating onto me. I step back, trying to put some distance between us.
“Stop! Just stop it! Leave me alone. I can do what I want. Who I get with is none of your business, Knox! You’re with someone! So stop fucking around with me.”
I place my hands on his chest, pushing him back away from me. He’s too close. I start to pace back towards the door, but he grabs my wrists and pulls me back to him once more.
I’m fighting every urge to give in to him. I can’t give in to him. But it’s so hard. Why is it so hard?
“Alex-” he begins softly, making my eyes drift upwards to meet his.
“Stop, Knox. Please. You’ve moved on, so let me.” I remove his hands from mine and walk out the door, leaving him alone in the room. What he did wasn’t fair.
I find myself walking down the stairs, the carpet giving way to the cool tiled floor beneath my bare feet. I mindlessly walk back to the kitchen.
I walk past the couples arguing, most likely about me, because they stop when I walk by. I slide the door open and step outside, ready to go swimming.
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