Filed To Story: The Knight and the Moth Book PDF Free by Rachel Gillig
Our lookout was cloaked in mist. I wrapped the wool cloak Maude had given me under my chin and watched my breath steam out of me.
“So.” Rory pulled a stem of idleweed from his cloak, fumbled for flint rock he did not have, then begrudgingly tucked it back. “What do you think of the Peaks?”
I shushed him with a hiss. “We’re trying to be covert.”
He snorted. “Right. Sorry.”
I looked out over the vista.
After a long pause, Rory’s voice quieted. “Thanks for what you did back there,” he said. “For saving Benji the way you did.” He blew out a breath. “You make a better knight than most.”
“Don’t make fun of me.”
“I’m not.”
I kept silent. Then-“Back at the Seacht. When the water sprite bit my hand. You said compassion is a craft. That when it comes to sprites, you try to exact it.” My brow knit. “That’s not a knightly virtue, is it? It’s one of yours.”
“Who said I had virtue?”
I glowered through darkness.
Rory blew out a breath. “No sprite ever took advantage of me when I was a foundling boy. No sprite ever beat me. Used me.” I couldn’t see his eyes. But I knew they were on me. “No sprite told me I was special, then hurt me.”
I understood exactly what he meant, and wished I didn’t.
A light rain began, and I drew my cloak closer around me.
“I see you’re still not wearing those boots I gave you,” Rory said. “Worried I might take it as a sign of encouragement?”
My gaze shot to his dark silhouette. “Maude got me those.”
“Did she?”
I said nothing, and he chuckled. “Rest easy, Diviner-I’m well aware I repulse you. No need to get frostbite on your toes to prove it. They’re just boots.”
I stayed quiet.
“You’re really not going to talk to me?”
“Wouldn’t want you to get the wrong idea.”
“I’m full of wrong ideas.” Rory paused. “Is this about what happened in the forge?”
“Nothing happened in the forge.”
Silence unspooled between us, pulled taut by the sound of our breathing. It was only because it was too dark out for me to see his expression, or he mine, that I asked, “Are you married?”
Rory coughed. “Come again?”
“Four fiddled with a married knight. Not on purpose-he didn’t tell her he was wed. And I thought… maybe some of you were married and not saying so when you came to Aisling, because you thought you were there for our enjoyment, or we for yours.”
I heard the slow sound of his exhale. “And if I was married? That would, what?
Bother you?”
There was a monster in my gut, scratching its way up my throat. “Are you?”
He took his time answering, like he knew I was suffering and wanted to savor it. “No, Diviner. I’m not.”
The monster withdrew, nicking my dignity before settling once more into the pit of my stomach. “Is there anyone you fancy? A fellow knight, maybe?”
“That’s not done,” Rory murmured. “No bed relations within the knighthood.”
“You said the rules have exceptions. That you becoming a knight is proof of it.”
“Yes, well, there are a few tenets even I haven’t broken. I don’t fancy another knight.” I could hear a smile in his voice. “Now be quiet. We’re trying to be covert.”
I settled against the rock and set my gaze once more upon the flask of spring water below. Somewhere an owl was hooting. I could hear the waterfall roaring in the distance, a steady purr against the night’s stillness-
“Was there ever someone you fancied?” Rory asked. “Someone who came to the tor and caught your eye?”
I grinned into the dark. “Why? Would that bother you?”
He didn’t answer.
“I’ve had a few dalliances. Nothing stuck.”
“Why not?”
“Same as your knighthood. Aisling bars bedfellows. Any flirtation I had was over before it started. And knowing that nothing would last, I could never-“
I stopped short, swallowing embarrassment.
“Never what?”
“Nothing.”
He didn’t let it go. “Never…?”
“I could never get comfortable. Never feel what you’re meant to feel. You know-losing oneself with someone else. The unraveling.” My face was so warm it hurt. “The little death.”
He was silent for a beat of my heart. Then two. Three. “You’ve never finished.”
“Not with another person.”
I thought he’d laugh at me. Or be incredulous, like he’d been when I told him I didn’t have shoes. And that was my own fault, thinking I’d charted him-that I could predict his derision or humor or humanity. He opened another door to himself every time.
“Pith, you think there’s something wrong with me-“
“I don’t.” Rory’s voice was gravel. “I was wondering what it would be like. Watching you unravel.”