Filed to story: The Knight and the Moth Book PDF Free by Rachel Gillig
“You seem nervous, Diviner,” said a voice behind me. “Should I worry for my boots?”
Hairs on the back of my neck prickled. I kept my gaze forward. “Surprised you honored your word and came at all.”
“Happy to disappoint.”
“If it’s all the same to you, Myndacious, I’d rather we didn’t talk. I’m tired.”
I felt the heat of his stare on my back. “I’d be tired, too,” he said. “If I had to shoulder this place.”
I turned. Armor clad, Rory stood behind me, legs set broadly and hands clasped behind his back, like a good soldier. The charcoal around his eyes was smeared, like he’d been rubbing at it, but his gaze was unwavering. By the furrow of his brow-the deep, unhappy lines-I could tell he was as miserable to be here as I was.
“Why are you a knight, bound to honor the Omens,” I asked, “if you don’t even believe in them?”
“I believe in the Omens as much as you do.” The muscles in his jaw bunched. “But I have no faith in them.”
The gargoyle called from the chancel. “If you wish to Divine before the bitch-excuse me-before the abbess arrives, best get cracking.”
I marched down the aisle. The gargoyle stood in the abbess’s usual place upon the chancel, chest puffing, looking rather self-important. He gripped my hand, handing me into the spring.
The water was cold, its putrid sweetness oppressive. Rory stood opposite the gargoyle, no longer posturing like a soldier, but slouching, eyes tipping dangerously close to an eye roll.
“What is it you wish to learn from this Diviner’s dream?” I asked him, doing my best to imitate the abbess’s firm tone.
He snorted. “Nothing to learn here.”
Prat. “Have it your way. Just-” My stomach dropped. “Pith. I forgot a knife.”
The gargoyle tutted. “A bad portent unto itself.”
Rory’s gaze darted between us. “Problem?”
“I need your blood, you dunce.”
“Surely that’s just performative.”
“If it means something to me, then it’s not a performance.”
Rory paused. Slowly, he brought his hand to his mouth-and bit the pad of his thumb.
Red bloomed over his skin. Rory glanced down at his bloodied thumb, then at my mouth. “This good enough?”
“Adequate.” The gargoyle flicked his wrist. “Carry on.”
Rory didn’t. He was waiting. When it dawned on me why, the spring was not so cold.
Permission. He was waiting for me to grant it.
I nodded at his bloodied thumb. “Go on.”
A line drew between Rory’s brows. He held out his hand and I took it-his skin rough and warm-bringing it to my mouth. “What name, with blood, would you give the Omens?” I whispered.
“My name is Rodrick Myndacious.” With shocking gentleness, Rory pressed his bloodied thumb to my lips. The sound of his exhale thrummed through the cathedral. “What’s yours?”
The grooves of his thumb scraped over my bottom teeth. I tasted salt and copper, but there was so little blood that I did not suffer to swallow it. Rory’s skin grazed the tip of my tongue, stirring the answer that waited there.
Sybil, I almost said, the word an ancient stone at the bottom of a deep, dark well.
Once, my name was Sybil Delling.
But I didn’t say it. I lowered myself into the water instead. Looked up at the stained-glass windows above. “I’m ready, gargoyle.”
He smiled. Waited. “Ready for what, my dear?”
“For you to drown me.”
His smile disappeared. “That is only for the abbess to do.”
“And why I’ve asked you here in her stead.”
“No. I cannot. Perhaps the knave would-“
Rory’s voice was a whip, cracking through the cathedral. “No.”
“Gargoyle,” I snapped. “You’ve watched it done a thousand times over. For once in your life, be obedient.”
He began to quiver, but he did as he was told. Slowly, the gargoyle put his stone hand on my clavicle. If he were the abbess, he might have said the right words.
May you be a witness to the wonders of the Omens. A pupil of their portents. Ever but a visitor to their greatness.
But all he said, mournful, was, “Would that things were different.”
He pressed me into the spring. When I looked up through murky water, Rory’s visage was an undulating blur. His mouth was a taut line, his dark eyes filled with something that looked strangely like concern.
I choked on water. Thrashed in the spring. Agony swallowed me, and then I swallowed it, until there was nothing, nothing-
But a dream.
I was naked, waiting in that pale, liminal space that looked like Aisling but wasn’t. I looked down at my hands and feet and breasts and stomach and wondered as I often did how all that pain fit inside me.
I waited.
Waited.
“I’m here,” I called.
The only answer was my echo, small and childlike in the din.
I tried again. “I’ve come to Divine for Rodrick Myndacious.”
Nothing.