Filed To Story: In the Shadow of the Past Luna (Lily & James)
Me:
“Not right then, but she has thrown fits everywhere we have gone. She is convinced that she has the right to be treated like a princess by everyone.”
Jessica:
[eye roll emoji] “I love you.”
Me:
“Love you too.”
Jessica:
“I will make sure the others know to be prepared.”
With that, I headed to the pool to talk to Aiden and Sheila.
Hopefully my mate can ensure that everyone is ready for when Sheila returns to the pack. I will try to keep her here as long I can, but I do not know how long she will cooperate. My guess is that she will be on the next flight out of here.
(Lily POV)
Brady let go of my hand and ran his hands through his hair.
“Look, Lily, please remember that I am a different person now. I cannot justify any of the things that happened back then, and I do not want to even try. I was a jerk, and I know it.”
I shook my head. “Brady, you have told me all of this already.”
know. I just wanted to repeat it so that you remember it. I also want to be sure that you know I know how wrong I was.”
“Brady, relax. I understand that you are not perfect. And what happened must have occurred a long time ago, from what little I know.”
Brady did not say anything. He just kept running his hands through his hair.
“Brady, are you going to tell me?”
I asked gently. I would like to know, but you do not have to tell me you do not want to.”
“No, I want to tell you. It’s just…..”
it
Brady got up and started pacing. Then he sat down again, only to get up a couple of minutes later and resume pacing. Finally, he sat down, leaned his head back on the seat, and closed his eyes.
“I started dating Evelyn when we were both 15 years old. My dad, not surprisingly, was against it. He said. that I should not have a serious relationship until I met my fated mate, and that I should save myself for her. I ignored his advice. Evelyn was funny, kind, and absolutely gorgeous. I felt drawn to her. And I was a h orny ba&t ard.
We lost our virginity to one another at age 16. Evelyn became my world. We saw each other almost every day, and I fell head over heels completely in love with her. We continued to date all through high.
school and after we graduated.
My male friends-especially my alpha ones- would often talk about the girls that they dated and brag about their sexual exploits. I was the only one who had a serious girlfriend. My father repeatedly tried to convince me that having a serious girlfriend was a risk. He did not want me to be like my friends and have a new female every week, but he warned me that having such a serious girlfriend could also lead to unnecessary complications when I eventually met my mate.
I was stubborn, and I continued to ignore his advice. Nevertheless, the closer that Evelyn and I got to our
20th birthdays, the more we began to seriously think about what we would do and what would happen to not be so hard on us when we found our mates, but neither of us wanted to do that.
For whatever reason, it never occurred to Evelyn or I that we might be fated to each other. Looking back.
on it, I do not understand why it never occurred to us; all the signs were there. The only thing I can think of to explain it is that we were young and st upid.
Anyway, we watched as our friends began to turn 20 and meet their mates. The conversations with my
male friends shifted from discussions about their sexual exploits to conversations about how different sex was with their mates than with other girls that they had f&&ked. Meanwhile, Evelyn’s friends would regularly talk about how exciting it was to fall in love at first sight, with the power of the mate bond.
Between Evelyn and I, I turned 20 first. I was incredibly excited to find my mate. Even though Evelyn and
I were still together, I would go to parties and events eager to find out who the Moon Goddess had selected for me. I wondered whether the Moon Goddess would mate me with a blond with big breasts, a brunette with a tiny waist, a red-head with a perfect butt, or someone with a combination of those features.
I also fantasized about how much better sex would be with the mate bond versus the sex that I had been having with Evelyn. That is not to say that sex with Evelyn was bad. To the contrary, I enjoyed it very much. I just did not have anything to compare it to, because I had never been with anyone else.
Before you say anything, yes I know that the mate bond is about much more than just sex. But I did not necessarily realize that then. I was an immature, walking mess of hormones, and I could barely go three minutes without thinking about sex. So when I thought of my future mate, most of my thoughts naturally were about sex too.
At the same time, the idea of Evelyn having sex with another wolf drove me nuts. I decided that I had to be the one to find my mate first. That way, it would hopefully bother me less when she found hers. The closer to Evelyn’s birthday we got, the more desperate that I became to find my mate.
Unfortunately, Kalen fought me on the idea of checking out other females. All he wanted to do was hang out with Evelyn and her wolf. In hindsight, that alone should have been the biggest clue that Evelyn was my fated mate. But, of course, I did not think of it that way. I just thought that we had spent far too much time with Evelyn and her wolf the last few years, and that Kalen had gotten attached to them.
The three nights leading up to Evelyn’s birthday were the absolute hardest for me. I did not sleep at all. In retrospect, the lack of sleep probably contributed to the horrible decision that I made. I just kept thinking about the possibility of Evelyn meeting her mate and that other b&&tard touching her intimately, in ways only I had. The idea made me crazy.
Finally, the morning of Evelyn’s birthday arrived. I went over to her parents’ house. They had prepared a big birthday breakfast for her, and they had invited me to join them. The moment that I walked into began prancing in the back of my head shouting “mate”
over and over again.
Just then, Evelyn came down the stairs. I could tell her wolf was telling her the same thing. Evelyn had a huge smile on her face and ran down the stairs to greet me.
Unfortunately, instead of feeling happy, I…. I panicked.”
(Lily POV)
I waited patiently as Brady paused. At this point in the story, I did not know what to think, and I was afraid which direction the story might go.
Brady did not hold me in suspense long.
“Evelyn was thrilled to discover that we were mates,”
Brady continued, “and a big part of me was happy too. However, 20-year-old me also panicked. I kept thinking about the fact that being mated to Evelyn.
meant that I would never know what it felt like to have sex with others. I would also never get to experience the excitement of ‘love at first sight.”
The more my panic set in, the more I realized that I had to get out of there. I turned around and ran back to the packhouse. Kalen was screaming at me to go back to our mate, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do so.
Evelyn was not the type of she-wolf who ran away from her problems. She always confronted them heads on. And so, to her credit, Evelyn chased after me. But I was faster, so by the time she caught up, I had already made it back to my room.
Huffing and puffing. Evelyn demanded that I tell her what was wrong. I did not know what to tell her, so I did not say anything. I just stared out the window.
Evelyn then asked me if I was unhappy about us being mates. I hated the pain that I heard in her voice, but I did not know what to say. I mean, how do you tell the woman that you have loved for years that you are happy that you are mated to her, but that you are also disappointed that you were not mated to someone else? Or that you are relieved that she will never be touched by another male, but that you are disappointed that you will never get to have sex with another female? (2
As I was trying to figure out how to explain it all, Evelyn put her hand on my arm in a comforting manner. I felt the sparks for the first time, and they were everything that everyone had ever told me about.
I turned around and my eyes met with Evelyn’s. That is when the mate bond really took hold. I felt an overwhelming desire to kiss her. So I did. One thing led to another, and pretty soon we were in bed having the absolute best sex that we had ever had.”
I could not help but cringe at this part of Brady’s story. Lcould have lived without many of these details.
“In the heat of the act, Kalen’desperately wanted to mark Evelyn, but I would not let him. And when
Evelyn asked if her wolf could mark me, I refused.
A short time later, while we were laying naked next to each other on my bed, Evelyn asked me why I refused the marks. I decided to just be honest.
I told Evelyn that I wanted her as my mate, and that I was really happy that she was mine. However, I also admitted that I felt cheated that I had not gotten to play the field or experience what it was like to be with other females.
Evelyn was hurt, but she heard me out. When I was done explaining, she asked me what I wanted to do.
That is when I came up with what I thought was a great idea.
I told Evelyn that I felt like it was really important that I sow my wild oats and get that h orny teenager out of system. I proposed that we reject each other, but only temporarily. I wanted a few months to get the h orny teenager out of my system. Once I did, we could get back together, restore our bond, and mark each other.
Today, I fully recognize just how st upid and selfish that idea was, but at the time, I truly did think it was brilliant.
Evelyn, not surprisingly, did not agree. She angrily got dressed and asked me if I would be okay if she slept with other guys during our ‘break.’ I growled and told her that no wolf was allowed to touch what was mine. She looked at me like I had grown five heads which honestly, I probably had- and responded ‘fine.”
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I should have known that ‘fine’ did not mean ‘fine,’ but she had handled everything up until that point so well that I st upidly assumed that ‘fine’ meant that she agreed with my plan.
I said the words of rejection, and she accepted. We both passed out. That is not that unusual when mates reject each other, but it was yet another thing I had not thought about when I proposed the temporary rejection. She missed her entire birthday because of my st upidity, just like James made you miss yours. 2,
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