Filed To Story: Destined Bond with My Forbidden Alpha Novel (Alpha Alexander & Selene)
“My hearing isn’t like yours,” she said. “My senses are trained, not heightened. You can hear my heart from another room and feel the comfort it brings you. But I can only feel yours when we touch.”
Axel listened, he knew this already, but he didn’t realize that she couldn’t hear him. He knew that when he touched her, it soothed her almost immediately, but he didn’t realize that was the reason.
He took a deep breath and stood up. He reached his hands to the bottom of his shirt and grabbed it. Then he looked at her with seriousness.
“I will not be distracted,” he said.
“We don’t have to do anything, I promise,” she said.
Axel licked his lips, sighing as he wondered if it was a good idea, but he removed his shirt anyway.
Alice looked at his impressive body with the same hunger she always had. Though every intimate moment they shared left her satisfied and writhing in pleasure, she could never get enough of him.
“Alice…” he said with warning as his thumbs slipped into the waist of his lounge pants.
Alice looked up at him with a grin.
“I made a promise, but I’m not dead,” she replied. “Can’t I, at minimum, have a feast with my eyes before you starve me.”
She bit down on her lower lip as she watched his waistline with anticipation. Axel let out a soft growl.
“What?” she asked, looking up at his raised eyebrow.
“Turn around,” he said.
“You’ve got to be kidding,” she scoffed.
“Sit forward and turn the other way,” he instructed.
“Axel, I have seen every part of you,” she argued. “Why bother acting shy now?”
Axel growled again.
“Turn around, or I’m putting my shirt back on.”
With a huff and a pout, Alice did as she was told. She heard the shuffle of his clothing and the movement in the water as he climbed in. Then, as he stretched his legs out, he slipped his arm around her waist and pulled her back to lay against his chest.
Alice closed her eyes and let his presence envelop her. The warmth of the water and his skin touching hers was like the warmest blanket on a cold night. His arm at her waist hugged her gently. And the soft tickle of his long hair sticking to the parts of her shoulders and chest that slipped out of the water brought a smile to her face.
This was what she needed, to feel his warmth, his presence. To hear the sound of his breathing and his soft heartbeat blending into a song in her soul. The connection between them was profound. Just a touch was enough, but to be wrapped in him. It was another level.
Axel had insisted on a conversation. He had refused to get into the water with her because he didn’t want her to distract them from the conversation.
He wanted her to feel safe and comfortable. To know that he wasn’t going anywhere, but he needed her to know that the things she was afraid of were not real.
He agreed to get in because he knew she was right. She only lowered her defenses when he held her in his arms, and they existed together. But now, as he held her soft, naked body pressed against his own, he struggled to maintain his composure.
The instinct was natural. It was primal. The need to mate.
The wolf in him found the idea of holding back to be ridiculous and insulting to his mate. Instead, he wanted to shower her in affection, to hold her close and press warm, wet kisses all over her body until she was worn out from the intensity of his passion.
Axel bit down on the inside of his lip, trying to calm his urges. He knew that she could feel his excitement growing. In truth, it wouldn’t take much for her to turn this situation into a distraction, and he wasn’t sure he could resist if she did.
Alice let out a sigh, not a moan or a whimper of desire, a sigh filled with heavy emotion.
Suddenly Axel’s rational mind was in control once more. His focus on tearing down the barriers they had placed between themselves became clear again.
He hugged her tighter, knowing there was nothing he could say until she was ready to speak.
Alice felt his arms squeeze her gently, showing her that he was there, waiting for her to tell him what she needed.
“We can’t have a family,” she said softly. “You and I, can never have a family together.”
It was the first time she was admitting the whole truth out loud.
The problem wasn’t that she couldn’t have a baby or that he couldn’t. But that they couldn’t.
They, who loved each other.
They, who spent so many years with an emptiness in their hearts, longing to be together without even knowing.
They, who had found each other and given each other up for the good of everyone else.
And they, who had finally decided that their bond mattered more to them than what others believed was right or wrong.
Alice felt a painful tightness in her chest at the thoughts that swirled in her mind.
“Axel…” she whispered painfully. “I think… I think my heart is broken.”
Axel leaned forward, resting his chin on her shoulder and holding her close.
“I know,” he whispered. “I know.”
Alice let out a sob, quickly covering her mouth as the tears poured uncontrollably. She tried to keep herself from losing control, but it was a struggle.
“Let it go, Alice,” Axel whispered. “I’m right here, and I’m not going anywhere.”
Alice took a shaky breath; she lowered her hand and hugged his arms around her stomach. The sobs came with force. She shook as she cried in his arms.
It seemed like an eternity before the tears stopped falling.
Axel had turned the faucet, adding more hot water to the tub. Alice lay against his chest, taking tiny breaths.
“I’m sorry,” Axel whispered.
“For what?” Alice asked.
“I promised you,” he said. “I promised to give you a family. But in the end, I am the reason you can’t have one.”
Alice closed her eyes. It hurt to hear.
She wanted a family with Axel. She wanted to see him holding their baby in his arms. To watch him become a father that was loving and tender. To see how he would teach their children right from wrong, how he would laugh and smile as he watched them grow.
It was a beautiful dream. One that she had envisioned almost from the moment she recognized him.
“I want you to be happy, Alice,” Axel whispered with a pained voice, “I will do anything in my power to do that for you.”
Alice swallowed, and her panic began to rise.
“I am happy,” she replied quickly.
She felt his entire body stiffen at her words.
“That’s the first lie you’ve told me,” he said.
Their bodies were touching, pressed together, yet somehow, he suddenly felt so far away.
Alice chewed her bottom lip.
Axel’s hands moved to her shoulders, squeezing them gently.
“We don’t lie to each other, Alice, not us.”
He was right. Axel was the one person she never wanted to lie to.
Alice swallowed down her fear and took a deep breath.
She gathered her nerves and turned in the tub. She was on her knees between his legs and looking at him desperately.
“I will never be happy without you!” she shouted in a panic. “So don’t find someone else to give you a family, and don’t send me away because you think I will resent you. I won’t! I wanted a family with you! Without you, there’s no point, no happiness. Nothing!”
Alice stared at Axel as she finished shouting, waiting for his reaction, licking her lips nervously.
“Is that what all this is about?” he asked. His eyes were hidden by his long hair, making it hard for Alice to judge his mood.
He turned away from her, seemingly to collect his thoughts, but Alice waited patiently to hear his response.
“I heard what you said to Myka,” he said quietly. “I didn’t like it, but I also didn’t really think you were serious.”
He let out a sigh before turning back to face her.
Axel tilted his head slightly, his hair falling away from his face, and she saw something strange in his expression. A hardness she hadn’t seen before.
“You seem to be confused about something, Alice,” he said, his tone colder than she expected. “I thought I had made myself clear, but it seems I was mistaken.”
Alice swallowed nervously at the change in his demeanor. The gentle eyes, the warm tone, it was gone. Replaced by something more…. primal.
“Alice, I told you when I gave you that mark that once you were mine, there was no going back,” he continued.
Axel reached out and pulled Alice toward him, crashing her chest against his with enough force to splash some of the water onto the bathroom floor.
Alice gasped as she looked up at him, surprised by how close his face was to hers and the heat she saw in his eyes.
“I am a decent man. I give to those I can, support my pack, and sacrifice when necessary,” he whispered, his breath tickling her lips. “But my love… is selfish.”
He let out a soft growl.
“I will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for what you have lost,” he whispered, his lips so close that she could feel the movement of each word. “But make no mistake, you are mine, and I have no intention of ever letting you go.”
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