Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
“You didn’t know?” Valerian asked her. “We all assumed that you had chosen what form to take and that you knew what you looked like.”
“That’s right. I think we all just guessed that there was nothing going on that you weren’t in complete control of.” Gloriana added.
“Riviana, my love, go look in that mirror over there.” I told her as I pointed to the mirror that was across the room from us. “Go see the changes while they are still inside of you.”
“R..R..Joaquin? I didn’t know that anything was different. I just thought that I was glowing.”
“I know. Come on.”
I put my arm around her shoulders, once again feeling those wings tickling my flesh. It felt like they were moving a lot faster than they had been before. That was probably because she was nervous right now. That made sense to me at least.
With slow, halting steps, I took my Little Bunny over to the mirror so that she could see what she looked like. I think she was afraid of what she might see, most likely she was afraid of looking like a different person. That seemed like something that my adorable Little Bunny would be afraid of.
“Huh?!” She gasped in shock when she stepped in front of the reflective glass and took in her appearance. I saw her eyes moving in the mirror. She was looking at her own eyes, her face, her wings, her entire body.
The moment that her eyes met mine in the reflection, I made sure to show her support and love. The smile I gave her said that no matter what she looked like, I would love her forever. And forever was what I meant since we were not likely to die anytime soon.
“Joaquin? What is happening to me?” Her voice trembled as she tried to reach behind her and feel the wings on her back. She couldn’t grab them, she couldn’t touch them at all really, because her hand passed right through them. However, I know she could feel that frantic fluttering as she moved her fingers around inside of them.
“You’ve ascended Riviana. You already knew that though, didn’t you? You have ascended to being a Goddess now and this is the form you take when showing that Goddess form to others.” I tried to be supportive and understanding so that she wasn’t frightened anymore.
“How do I make it go away?” She wasn’t looking at me anymore, so I was guessing that she was asking herself. Still, I gave her an answer so that I might be of some assistance to her.
“Just try doing the same thing that you did to bring it on. Whatever you thought, whatever you were doing, do it again only in reverse. I am guessing that you thought about showing the dark Fae that you were a Goddess, so think about hiding that fact now.”
“I..I guess that would work.” She chuckled to herself as if she thought it was funny that she hadn’t figured that part out for herself. In her defense though, she was a little overwhelmed and shocked.
I watched as she closed her eyes and started to think. It was clear that she was thinking very hard, concentrating on the task that she was trying to accomplish. She was doing her best to make sure that she hid the goddess part of her from the rest of the world right now.
As she concentrated and focused, I saw the light that seemed to be coming from inside of her fade. She was beginning to look a little more normal. The wings were disappearing, and the glowing, luminescent color was gone completely. However, I could see that her face and skin still looked different.
No amount of concentrating and focusing seemed to be making all of that ethereal beauty disappear. My Little Bunny has always been beautiful. She was the most beautiful woman in the world in my eyes and the eyes of many others. But now, there was something more to her now. If I had to estimate here, I would say that she was three to four times more beautiful than she had already been.
The shape of her eyes, the curve of her lips, the formation of her cheek bones, they were all perfect. Not a single flaw was to be found anywhere on her face, neck, arms, or any other part of her skin that was exposed. She was still unearthly in her beauty, and I don’t think that was ever going to change.
“It didn’t work!” She seemed upset as she opened her eyes and looked in the mirror again.
“You’re beautiful, Riviana, just like you always have been.” I assured her as I wrapped my arms around her from behind. “You are perfect, inside and out. Don’t ever forget how much I love you.” I kissed her cheek then, offering her my support and love.
Thankfully, the meeting between us all ended shortly after that. I was pretty sure that my Little Bunny needed to rest after everything that had happened today. She needed to take it easy and think about what had changed for her, not just her looks, but everything. And I was going to be right there with her, helping her along the way. I was never going to abandon her.
I kept my arm around her shoulders the entire time. All the way from Gloriana’s private study up to our room in our private residence. I didn’t let her go. I think I needed to be comforted by her as much as she needed to be comforted by me.. We were here for each other.
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Joaquin
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I didn’t say a word as we walked and neither did she. We went straight to our room and to our bed. I pulled her up onto the mattress with me and held her in my arms. She wasn’t shaking, no trembling or obvious signs of fear or distress. She was just uncertain about things and about herself.
“Little Bunny.” I called out to her as I watched her face. She looked at me calmly, not jumping at my sudden interruption or anything. She seemed to be doing OK, that was good.
“Yeah, Joaquin?” She gave me a soft smile.
“Are you OK?” I hoped that she was.
“I think so.” She shrugged a little. “I just didn’t think that something like that could come out of me. I mean, I know that I am a goddess now, but I didn’t think that I would ever look like that. And now look at me, I am forever changed.
“Not in a bad way though. And to me, you were always the most beautiful woman in the world. Now the rest of the world can see what I already saw in you.” That made her laugh with a genuine smile on her lips.
“You’ve always been such a smooth talker.” She rolled her eyes and looked up at me. “But I love that about you. And you know, you’re the most handsome man in the world, Joaquin, and that is not just my opinion either.” She chuckled again, most likely remembering all of my adoring fans.
“The only person whose opinion I care about is yours. I don’t care if the rest of the world thinks that I am hot or butt ass fucking ugly, as long as you love me, that is all that matters.” She laughed again, hard enough to make her whole body shake.
“I don’t know, could I be with someone that ugly?” She tilted her head and pretended to think about that for a moment.
“Hey!” My fake sadness and hurt made her giggle.
“OK, OK, as long as it’s you I wouldn’t care what my lover looked like. Probably because I love you so much.” She grinned at me and leaned in for a kiss.
“You know, Little Bunny, my love will never change. It doesn’t matter what you look like, what title you hold, how much time passes, nothing about that matters. All that matters is that we are together now and forever.” I put every ounce of feeling for her that I had into those words, hoping that she understood them to be true.
“I know Joaquin, I know. And I will always love you, no matter what.”
