Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
We snuggled up with each other for the flight home and slept once again. When we landed Gabriel was once again our driver as he had been waiting for us to arrive at the airport.
“Welcome home, Queen Riviana.” He spoke as politely and properly as ever.
“Thank you, Gabriel. I hope all was well while we were away.”
“Yes my lady, everything went smoothly. How was your trip?”
“We felt the babies move this morning.” Joaquin exclaimed excitedly just like he had back on the island. I knew he would tell everyone that he could so I just let him be. Besides, Gabriel looked almost as excited to hear that news as Joaquin had been. I was so happy to have such wonderful people in my life.
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Riviana
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I felt like it was hard to settle back into our daily lives. The routine of it all was so much less fun that our trip had been. Still, I had the memories. And I still got to wake up in Joaquin’s arms every morning. I would never want to be without that.
Now that we had felt the babies move, Joaquin wanted to schedule an ultrasound with Griffin right away. He wanted to see how big they had gotten and how much they had developed. He also wanted to see if Dietrich had been right about the babies.
We had an appointment scheduled for a few days from now. However last night had been the combination of Shane and Shawn’s birthday party and Shawn and Dietrich’s housewarming party and for some reason Shawn and Dietrich called us all frantic, scared, and excited (for Dietrich anyway) first thing in the morning.
They seemed to have an issue that they didn’t mention completely over the phone. I mean I assumed they hadn’t spoken correctly because it sounded like they said Shawn was pregnant which shouldn’t be possible.
As we were leaving I asked Gabriel about the situation. I wanted to see if he and his vast stores of knowledge knew anything about male wolves getting pregnant. It turned out he did know something about it.
Long story short, powerful male wolves that mated with another male, whether they were wolf or not, could still have offspring. One or the other of the males would conceive the children, since it always happened in pairs. And apparently the males would only have one pregnancy, it would never happen again.
After a long discussion of what to do Shawn decided he didn’t want anyone to know about the pregnancy. The two of them would be going to Germany for the duration of his pregnancy so that he could be hidden and they would tell people they used a surrogate to have children.
Later that night we received another call. Dietrich was pregnant now too. I don’t even want to know what happened when we left them earlier in the day. Nevertheless, I was happy for them. They were going to have children that were genetically theirs in every way possible. This was amazing.
Three days after the excitement with Shawn and Dietrich was my ultrasound appointment at Griffin’s clinic. It was hard not to remember the first time that I had come to this office. I was here for a happy occasion and I knew that but it was also sad to think that my first time being pregnant led to me losing the baby at the hands of my sick and sadistic father.
As I thought about it I shed a few tears. Joaquin noticed and pulled me close to him while we sat and waited in the chairs.
“What’s wrong? Does something hurt?” He whispered the words in my ear so only I could hear him.
“No.” I wiped my face and tried to smile.
“Baby, what’s wrong?” He pulled me from my seat and sat me on his lap. While I leaned against Joaquin he used one hand to rub circles on my back and cupped the other around my growing belly.
“I’m just emotional and hormonal I guess.”
“Come on, Little Bunny, I know something had to have brought this on. Please, tell me what’s wrong.”
“I just thought about the first time that we were here. Right before our wedding with the first baby. I thought about how if I hadn’t lost that baby he or she would have been here in my arms right now. If I hadn’t miscarried we would already be parents.”
“Honey?” He looked sad when he heard what had brought on my tears. “We’re already parents. The babies might not be here but we’re parents. That won’t change. And our first little jelly belly is with the Goddess waiting for us.”
“I know that. I know it’s not my fault or yours. I know that our baby is safe with the Goddess, but that doesn’t make it any easier to think about it. All I can imagine is a cute little baby with your black hair and golden eyes. A little boy that was supposed to be strong and protect people. I wanted to know him, Joaquin. I wanted to see what that baby would have become.”
“I know, sweetheart. I know.” Joaquin hugged me then. His arms were around me holding me gently while I cried softly onto his shoulder.
We were still in that position when the nurse called us back. When she saw that I was crying she looked worried and was about to say something when I cut her off.
“I’m OK, really. I just got hormonal all of a sudden.” She smiled at me and chuckled slightly.
“Honey, it happens to all of us. Making a baby is a crazy and hectic time.”
“Yeah, it really is.” I grinned as best as I could.
The nurse led us to the back of the clinic then. I was weighed and my vitals were taken. I even had to give a urine sample. A few minutes later we were in the exam room waiting for Griffin.
I knew that I didn’t need to be nervous. I knew that the babies were fine. I had felt the move consistently over the last several days. Still, I was nervous and uneasy.
The moment that Griffin walked into the room he knew what it was that I was feeling.
“Riviana, there is no reason to be worried.” Those were the first words he said when he opened the door and looked at me. I wonder if the nurse told him that I was emotional when she called me back.
I couldn’t help myself, I cried again. Joaquin wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to his side.
“Hey Griff. I’m sorry about this. She is just remembering the first time we were here. If all that hadn’t happened then that baby would be here by now.”
“Yeah, I figured it was something like that. I noticed the date recently as well. You can’t beat yourself up though Riviana. Things will get better, plus Joaquin, myself, and everyone in the pack is bound and determined to make sure that nothing happens this time around. We will all protect these babies. You will be holding them in just over three months.” I did my best to smile at him. I was almost half of the way through my pregnancy now, I hadn’t even realized it.