Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
“For what?” It was his turn to sound confused.
“For thinking of me, and knowing it was too soon.”
“I will always put you first, Shawn, always and forever.” I blushed at his words, he sounded so sincere.
“I will head back for now. I don’t think I should stay any later.” He grinned sheepishly and I noticed he was walking just a little awkwardly when he stood. I moved to follow him and noticed that I was walking the same way. It’s a little difficult to hide that walk, the one that clearly told how aroused we were.
I met him at the door as he was about to leave. He turned for just a moment, looking me in the eyes.
“Gute Nacht Sch?tzchen.” He whispered as he pressed a feather light kiss to my lips. It only lasted a second and he was gone immediately after that. He seemed to have warped through a shadow to put distance between us.
“Oh Goddess.” I sighed as I leaned back against the wall after I shut and locked the door behind him. “This is getting complicated.”
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Dietrich
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Shawn was one of the personal guards to the Luna so he was busy almost every day. I was glad that we had those first two days together and I still managed to get him to spend time with me when he was off duty though, which was good.
I think Shawn is finally starting to come around now, though nothing much has happened since that kiss. There hadn’t even been another kiss, just the memories of that first one. I hadn’t pushed things since then, not wanting to scare him off.
I would spend a good chunk of time at Shawn’s place, or he would come to see me in my room after he got off work. I was happy to spend as much time with him that I could, but I won’t deny that I was greedy and wanted more.
It was for that reason that I had asked if Shawn would have a picnic with me in the mountains, at the place where we had that first long talk on the day we had met.
I was going to count this picnic as our third date, but I figured that Shawn would consider it to be the first, unless he counted our dinner last week as a date as well. Also, we only had a few more days now until the wedding for Riviana and Joaquin, and I fully expected Shawn to be my date then too.
I planned this date down to the finest detail. The weather was perfect and clear which meant we could watch the stars as long as we wanted. I didn’t have a kitchen to use personally, even though I could probably have used the one here if I asked, but I decided to order a meal that I thought would suit us well instead.
The dinner was going to consist of a variety of side dishes and horderves from a decently upscale restaurant down in the city. It was a nice enough place and their food would fit well with the choice of wine I had chosen for the night.
I picked out a nice, plush blanket and even some cushions for us to sit on. There was crystal stemware, gold plated utensils, and candles, it would cover everything that we would need.
I had asked Shawn to meet me after his shift at the estate. He came to my room just before sunset and knocked softly on the door. The look he was wearing, one of slight embarrassment with just a hint of excitement, that look made me smile with satisfaction. He was looking forward to tonight almost as much as I was.
“H-hey Dietrich.” He stuttered slightly when I smiled at him.
“Hallo Herzchen.” I was grinning, eager for the night to start, how could I not be with my mate standing right in front of me. “Shall we be going?” I grabbed the oversized picnic basket I had prepared for tonight. It might have looked cliche, but I didn’t care, Meine Liebe deserved everything, cliched or not.
With the basket on one arm I linked the other arm around his, holding him close to me.
“Herzchen, will you close the door for me? My hands seem to be full.” I joked, knowing full well I could have released him to shut the door but I didn’t want to.
“Uh, sure.” He used his free hand to pull the door closed behind us before we set off down the hall.
The walk from my room on the third floor to the place in the mountains where we had been before didn’t take very long. Neither of us talked really, I just held Shawn close to me and rested my head against his as we were walking. It was a sweet, and romantic walk in and of itself.
Together, the two of us spread out the comfortable blanket and sat on our cushions. I put mine right next to Shawn’s so we could be closer together, and I was happy when he didn’t pull or scoot away.
The food was still warm and it was amazingly delicious, I wondered if it only tasted so much better because I was with Shawn. I figured it might have and I didn’t mind, things would always be better with him by my side.
I only brought one bottle of wine, nothing that would get either of us drunk. I wanted us both to be pretty clear minded and to not let anything happen that Shawn was not prepared for. But the taste of the wine, the deliciousness of the food, and the candy for the eyes was more than enough to already have me feeling a little tipsy. I hoped this feeling would never fade.
While we ate we talked about how our day had been, the different things that we had done. Shawn was a busy man of great importance to his pack, and I loved hearing all about what he had done.
“You’re in the inner circles, you know what is going on as much as I do.” He was smiling as he spoke. “I like that because it means that I am able to talk to you about what I do during the day.”
“Ich bin auch meine Liebe. I am too.”
“I like that you do that?” He smiled shyly after saying that, like he was embarrassed.
“You like what?”
“That you will translate your phrases when you know I won’t understand them.”
“Keine bange, Shawn, no worries at all. I know you don’t understand it all yet. But in time you will.” I stroked the side of his face as I spoke, causing him to blush a furious shade of red. I wondered how long he was going to be so shy towards me.
“I’m glad I am learning. But how long is it all going to last?” He looked sad now for some reason, and the sight of the heartache in him brought physical pain to me.
“Was meinen Sie? What do you mean?”
“This? All this? Us? How long is all of it going to last?”
