Filed to story: Sorry Alpha I Am Wolfless Novel
“Yes, oh Goddess, yes. That’s what I want too. I never want us to be apart. I mean I know we can’t spend every moment together, but I don’t want us separated like we were before. I want us to be here for each other so I can spend forever making up for the stupid things that I did.”
“At least you admit they were stupid.” I laughed at him. “That means you have potential.”
“I want to get to know you. I want to date you. When you’re ready we will get married and have a family. But we will do it all at your pace, Emmalee, I never want to rush you or pressure you at all.”
I couldn’t help it, I laughed at his sincerity.
“Carter, we don’t have to try so hard. I know that you’re the mate for me. I can feel it in my heart, my wolf knows it, that’s all that matters right now. The Goddess chose you for me and I trust her. And I will learn to trust you too. But until then, we will get to know each other. And I like the sound of dating.”
“Have you dated anyone before?” He asked me, it was clear that he was nervous about my answer as he looked at me with expectant eyes.
“No, I haven’t.” I looked away, embarrassed. “I’ve never been with anyone before.”
“So, that was your-.” He trailed off, unable to finish his question.
“That was my first kiss.” I blushed.
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be.” I cut him off before he could say anymore, before he could regret what he did or make me regret it. “I loved it, I was happy that you kissed me. I wanted you to, but I was too shy to ask you to.”
“But I shouldn’t have rushed it.”
“It made me really happy Carter, so please don’t be sorry.” I was pleading with him and he finally nodded his agreement.
As I was watching him, I had a sudden thought. He didn’t kiss me like it was his first time. He had kissed me like a man who had experience with that sort of thing before.
“Umm, Carter, have you, dated much?” I was afraid to hear his answer, especially after I saw his eyes go wide.
“W-we-well I-I have dated a c-couple times.” He stuttered, nervously. “It was nothing serious, just casual. You know we don’t ever date anyone seriously because our mates could come along at any time.”
“I know.” I didn’t know why it made me sad to hear that he had dated people before me, but it made me feel upset and jealous and sad all at the same time.
“I’m sorry. I never should have dated anyone. I should have saved all my firsts for you.” He looked upset as he leaned forward, grabbing my hands in his and holding on tight.
“You can just share in my firsts. Isn’t that what counts?”
“Yes, that’s all that matters. Because nothing before you mattered at all, my life didn’t truly begin until I saw you that day. Hell, it didn’t truly begin until today. You helped to wake me up, to bring me to life.”
His words were making me want to cry. He was being so sweet right now. I could trust that he hadn’t been promiscuous, but I knew he had experience. That much was obvious.
“Enough with the histories, that’s not a good road to go down yet.” I giggled, worried for the future conversation we’d have about it. “Let’s learn more about each other.”
“Yeah.” He looked relieved as he smiled at me.
I know we would usually learn this stuff over time, but I thought it would be fun to play a little game with it all.
“Want to play twenty questions?”
“An ice breaker?” He looked apprehensive.
“A way to learn a lot in a little bit of time.”
“Sounds like a plan.” He agreed more readily than I had thought he would. “You start.”
It was my turn, and I was going to use my questions to learn about him and my possible future.
“Where did you go to college?”
“I haven’t yet.” He answered quickly. “Riviana’s life was too miserable for me to leave her behind. So I skipped and stayed with her.” His answer was so sweet.
“You love your family.” I smiled contentedly at him. He nodded before he spoke again.
“My turn.” His smile was sweet and innocent. “What’s your favorite color?”
“I love them all, but if I had to pick, I would say purple. It’s such a pretty, soothing color to me. What’s your favorite color?” I asked him, this was fun, getting to know each other like this.
“Green.” He smiled happily looking into my eyes. “That beautiful shade of green that is your eyes. I’ve never seen anything more beautiful.” His words made me smile and I squirmed to hide the blush I knew was deepening on my cheeks and ears. “What did you want to do, career wise, when you started college?”
“Honestly I didn’t know. I just love being around people and making them happy, but I don’t really like school.” I put my head in my hands, ashamed.
“There’s nothing wrong with that. You’re a people person. And you like to plan parties right? I had heard that somewhere, why not go for event planning.” My head shot up.
“Why hadn’t I thought of that.” I grinned at him. “I can actually get a degree in party planning and make even more people happy. I can have my own party planning business. Oh Carter, you’re amazing.” I threw my arms around his neck and hugged him excitedly. Then I seemed to remember what I was doing and I pulled myself away from him in a hurry. “I’m sorry.”
