Chapter 40 – Kidnapped by My Mate Novel (Belle & Grayson) Online Free by Annie Whipple

Filed To Story: Kidnapped by My Mate Novel (Belle & Grayson) Online Free by Annie Whipple

And yet, I couldn’t bring myself to be scared of my death.

It already felt like I was dead.

Maybe if that were truly dead, the pain would stop.

Elijah suddenly grabbed my chin and forced my teary gaze back on his. “I don’t know what the hell you are thinking right now but whatever it is, it needs to stop.

It’s not true. You are strong. You will not let the mate bond defeat you and tear you apart. You will get through this. And you will do it with your head held high like the powerful luna you are.”

I stared at him.

I didn’t feel powerful or strong.

I felt broken.

Defeated.

Used and forgotten.

But I knew he was right.

This couldn’t be my end.

I couldn’t let Grayson win.

Not after all that he had done to me.

I nodded my head. “Okay,” I said.

Elijah nodded back. “Okay,” he repeated.

BELLE POV

Elijah moved gently, removing his arms from around me. I whimpered quietly as even the slightest movement caused searing pain in my body. He stood and took off the sweatshirt he was wearing so now he was only in his pajama bottoms, a shirt, and soaking wet slippers. He handed the sweatshirt to me. “Here. Put this on.”

I moved slowly but with determination and, with the help of Elijah, was able to get the piece of clothing over my shaking form.

“Thank you,” I said to him. I hadn’t even realized how cold I was until his sweatshirt, still warm from his body heat, was wrapped around me like a comforting hug.

Elijah nodded. He crouched down next to me. “Okay, so here’s what’s going to happen now,” he said in a calming voice. “You’re going to stay right here and try to get control over your body and emotions. It’s going to be hard but you need to do it in order to face what comes next. Take deep calming breaths and try to think not about you-know-who,” he said, obviously referring to Grayson. Well, at least I knew that he wasn’t talking about Voldemort.

He reached over and pushed my hair out of my face in a comforting manner. I smiled weakly at him and nodded my head. I could do that. Right?

“I’m going to go back to the packhouse and get your stuff,” Elijah continued. “And then we’re going to get you on a bus and as far away from here as possible. Where does your family live?”

“I don’t have any family,” I said quietly, dropping my gaze in embarrassment. “At least not any that would want me around.”

Elijah swore quietly under his breath, running a hand through his hair in frustration. “You’ve got to be shitting me,” he sighed. “Okay. That’s fine. We’ll figure something else out then.”

I didn’t respond.

It was embarrassing how much of a mess my life was.

I had thought I had it all figured out when I fell in love with Grayson and made the decision to stay with him when we came back from Paris. Boy, was I wrong.

I had given everything up for him. My apartment, my job, even the chance to make amends with my mother. I’d gotten nothing in return.

It just went to show how destructive I truly was, destroying and hurting anyone that came to know me. Even my own parents.

Even myself.

“Luna, look at me,” Elijah suddenly said.

I raised my head to look at him, wishing he wouldn’t call me that anymore. I wasn’t his luna. I was just Belle. Poor, broken Belle.

“You’re going to get through this,” Elijah said. His voice held no hesitation. “It’s going to take a while but the pain will lessen. All of this will become a horrible memory. What the alpha has done to you is going to haunt you for the rest of your life. There is nothing we can do about that and for that, I apologize. But I can promise you that your life will not always revolve around this day. You will move on. Things will get better. I promise.”

As I stared into Elijah’s eyes that held much more confidence than my own, I couldn’t stop myself from doubting his words. The pain that I was feeling right now, both physically and emotionally, was so overwhelming that it felt like it would never end.

How could I possibly move on from this?

How could I possibly go on living my life knowing that Grayson, the person that I cared about more than anybody else in the world, hated me?

But the determination and sincereness in Elijah’s words gave me hope. And hope was all I could ask for at that moment. Hope would give me the strength to go on living another day.

Elijah stood when I didn’t reply to his lofty claims. I was grateful that he seemed to be dropping the subject for the time being. “Okay, I have to go get your stuff now.

We need to get you out of here. The further you are from the alpha, the less pain you will feel. And the sooner you can heal.”

I wanted to trust that what he was saying was true but my pain only seemed to increase at even the thought of being away from Grayson.

“Shit,” Elijah suddenly said. He was looking back in the direction of the packhouse with a worried expression. “I’m going to have to get past the alpha to get your stuff from his room, aren’t I?” He let out a quiet growl of frustration. “Maybe—”

“My stuff isn’t in his room,” I interrupted. “I haven’t stayed there for a while.”

Elijah’s knit together. “Then where have you been sleeping?”

I thought seriously about just saying screw it and leaving town without any of my things.

I didn’t want to have to explain what really happened between Grayson and me, explain that I hadn’t slept in the same bed as Grayson for weeks.

But the things in my suitcase and backpack were all that I had in the world. I would be left with only the clothes on my back if I didn’t get them before I left.

“Room 101,” I finally whispered.

“In the basement?” Elijah asked. The tenseness in his tone told me he knew exactly what room I was talking about.

I nodded. “Yeah.”

Elijah growled but didn’t ask any more questions, thank God. I wasn’t ready to rehash things and he seemed to understand that. “Okay. Okay, fine. Then that’s where I’m going.” His eyes softened when they fell back on me. “Are you going to be okay here on your own for a little while? No one knows you’re here but me so no one is going to find you. I’ll go as fast as I can.”

I wanted to say no.

I wanted him to stay with me.

I was terrified of what would happen if I came in contact with Grayson again.

The pain would surely be immeasurable. But I reminded myself that there was no way that he would come looking for me. He didn’t want me.

He was busy sleeping with some other woman at that exact moment, right as Elijah and I spoke. The intense pain coursing through my body confirmed that fact.

“I’ll be okay,” I said.

Elijah didn’t hide his grimace, probably put off by how broken my voice sounded.

He bent down and left a soft kiss on my forehead. I smiled weakly up at him when he straightened, my heart warming at how sweet and caring he was.

“I’ll be quick,” he said. “All of this will be over soon.”

He smiled at me once more and turned, ready to start off in the direction from which we came.

“Elijah?” I asked quickly, stopping him before he could go.

He turned and looked at me. He raised a brow in question.

“Thank you,” I whispered. “Really. Thank you.”

He smiled again. “Of course, Luna. You have nothing to thank me for.”

And with that, he turned and sprinted off into the woods.

I watched him run away from me until I couldn’t see him anymore. He was like a blur in the wind, beautiful and strong, his werewolf genes making him faster than I could even comprehend. When he was finally out of my sight, I allowed myself to lie down on my side, hoping that the cold snow would cool down my feverish body.

I was relieved that the waves of pain coursing through me had finally lessened.

They were unpleasant but not nearly as bad as when they had first started. This could only mean one thing.

Grayson was finished mating with someone else. I couldn’t decide which was worse, the agonizing torture that I had felt just moments ago or simply knowing that Grayson had sex with someone else, officially choosing them as his mate instead of me.

Probably the latter.

All of this had made me doubt all of my decisions.

First, my decision to stay with Grayson in the first place.

And second, my decision to not allow him to use me in order to gain power.

If I had, I would still be in that horrible house now, lonely and heartbroken, knowing he only wanted me for his own selfish reasons. But what if things would have changed if I had slept with him? What if that is what Grayson needed to come to the realization that he still loved me? I shook my head violently, trying to erase the thought from my head. But even as I was able to rid it from my mind, I knew that it would be a question that would haunt me forever.

I sighed deeply and reached for the mark that Grayson had left on my neck what felt like an eternity ago. It flared up at my touch, angry and throbbing, shooting agonizing pain throughout every part of my body.

I gasped loudly when my body tensed up and dropped my hand in a flash.

Well, I won’t be doing that again, I thought bitterly as I stuffed my face in the snow to seek some comfort from the hot pain. I wondered if the bite mark would heal now or if I would have to live with the constant reminder of Grayson’s betrayal prominently displayed on my neck. Happy thoughts, Belle, I reminded myself, thinking about what Elijah had said to me before he left. Think about something else. Anything else.

It didn’t work.

It was as if that was the only thought that my mind could conjure up.

And with the image of Grayson kissing a naked woman on his lap, not even stopping when I walked into the room, replaying over and over again in my head, I allowed myself to cry.

It felt good to cry. It felt good to let myself feel my emotions for a second before I had to jump back into the real world. I had learned this when my father died and I was left on my own. Once Elijah was back, I would wipe my tears and force myself to stand up with my head held high.

But for now… I just cried.

 Elijah was right when he said he would be quick.

It couldn’t have been more than an hour before he came sprinting back into my view with my backpack on his back and my suitcase securely in his arms. He was wearing a different outfit as well, now in jeans, a coat, and big boots.

I stood to meet him, quickly wiping the tears from my eyes and pushing my shoulders back in the way that I promised myself I would do.

I wished I’d put on shoes before I’d left the packhouse in such a hurry.

My sock covered feet were freezing. Thankfully, I had shoes in my backpack that I put on when Elijah finally reached me. And then I put on the coat that he handed me as well.

When I straightened and looked at Elijah, he said, “You ready?”

I nodded stiffly. “Yes. I’m ready.”

He quickly shrugged off my backpack and handed it to me. “Put this on,” he said.

I didn’t question him, grabbing the backpack from his hand and putting its straps over my shoulders. Then, he turned from me and squatted down, motioning for me to get on his back. “Hop on.”

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